EverLasting Love Always.... Im Yours Always.....

2011-10-16T15:43:00.001+08:00

Baru jua dmlm lps nyampaikn ajat mgidam sushi n kupibin, kalie td ayah mbanguni pagi2 mnta dgni m-murtabak d kk koya~ it was my idea plng kk koya atu psl tliur jua lg...

Nmpk dh bunchit parut ku anie hehehe but anyway i loveessss to spend tyme w ayah! Apatah lg mkn...

Now otw kn memasak daging salai, bgulik2 bgusti atas katil dulu sma si dia, brulit2 d bdn lg lh... ^.^

Ohhh!!! Nowadays hving a spinning-around-the-world-headache evry moments, nd more folic acid! Aint feel so gd meh w those headache and nausea =/

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2011-10-16T00:32:00.001+08:00

Big thanks to my mummeh JJ psl mlm mggu mdgni dri anie yg ngidam bnr double chocolate coffee bean esp sushi d excapade... Pksa layan liur anie mun inda dpt slagi atu inda branti ngidam tliur sja...

Tday is my 2nd tyme going to coffee bean hving my banana chocolate w whipped cream within TWO days!!

Mbina bdn bnr aku anie, nda buleh d amal kn slalu nie cmani ah! This bulan yg pling teruk ngidam sja sna sni, mna jua! 14wks udh~

Now, my liur or ngidam thngy back to zero, i hope!! Kcuali satu, nan garlic w fish curry d rangmahal... Nah naaaaah... Tliur cha ku =S apa nah? Chicken masala or evn lamb blabla d
rangmahal atu but not too ngidam, buleh lg drunding liur atu...

Oh ayah! Please bring ibu there soon? And again coffee bean? Ayah promise ibu dh~

Ayah is sleeeping and ibu is wide awake... Nda jua kalie mnuman atu b coffee? Or myb urgku too hyper psl too sweet?

Mari kita usik dn kacau ayah tidurrrrr, jhooooom! Maaaaau tdur arh bdn ayaaah =X

Nytety nyte2 evryone!! Salam

p/s - peek.a.boo. w mummeh lg td, and i fall in love with tht ferrari strollers and teddy comforter!! Evn some accesories, haaaaiya!! Madela double breastpump anyone? Hehehe

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2011-10-12T19:03:00.001+08:00

Oh what shall i say?? I missss him badly!! Love him more!! Frst 14wks so tough!! Yoyoyo kepisan eyh~ kanyat2 kpala....

Tday, went shopping~ peek-a-boo! Wonderful but expensive! Went to toys r us too.. Bought smthngs.... Cmana kn basar nie mun bali mainan sja =P

Thn lunch d soto bunut (again), craving it toooo much!! An hr bfr tht had our breakfast- roti kosong w kopi n milo kosong suam ^.^ otw back bought my fav passion fruit w coconut jellies but in t end fighting w t two kids coz they lyke it too!!

Soon wna eat my chocolate cake frm le'apple.... Craving again!! Thanks fr pampering my craving-ness!! Hehehe

Kepisan nie cmani ah... Mun everyday mcm tong gas lh aku!

Sabar2 dulu mnahan aingliur mliat brg2 yg too kiyut yg mbg tempted kn mbali... Toooolongggggggg!!!!

Alhamdulilah evrythngs are normal n smooth, just playing w fantasy-ies! Hehehe

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2011-10-11T20:19:00.001+08:00

im toooo pleased and excited!!

Am just.... In frst few wks!! Wooohooooo!!!!!

Naughty thoughts ^.^

Ohhh, i misss you lh broom broom SF!

And i missss babyThanya so muccccccch!!! Bila lh us pegi sna ah? Thnking in this mnth psl im....

Craving fr some foods of my aunt's cooking, aint gd fr me....

In and out frm free-1st-class-hotel since than... And people keep pampering me with foods!! I gain abt almost 3kgs within a mnth!! Ha ha ha sik buleh diet lg oh not gd fr health =P inda kna srh diet bh, ada urg na mau mcm tulang bjln~

Gona active in some activities such as swmng, joy and gym evn tasek-ing just to keep me fit.. Anie bmain blusir sma ucing dlm rmh pun udh angih2 bari malo sja...

Oh, happy sweeet belated busdeh to me last 27th Sept!!

Big thanks fr all warm greetings guys!!

Ayah and ibu always loving you!! Heart you the most babyHamshahr!! You always in our prayer.....

Bun in a hot oven?

Picture of the year as my birthday gift!! Well as wht i always thnk...

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2011-09-27T21:17:00.001+08:00

HAPPY SWEET BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF on 27/9

Everybody celebrating my busdeh at the bank tday! Kira kyself belanja everyone lh tue~

Thanks to ma boy, mummeh JJ, cuzs and frens d fb fr the greeting! Even dst ^.^ ha ha ha

Tday being treated at soto bunut qlap, thanks mummeh JJ ku~

Im trying to be happy tday but seems tht i cnt lh~ doesnt matter tday is my special day, fr me it's a everyday days pun not a special....

But managed to get a slice of chocolate cake frm le'apple this morning.....

Oh! I wish thngs run so well but it did not! Too bad!! Just cnt wait to hv my own family thn i can happily celebrate any special days w them.....

Anyhow im still hapy people celebrating w me!!!

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2011-09-22T20:07:00.001+08:00

Mampu tersenyum walaupun sakit, tabahnya seorang insan yg bnama.. Woooohooo!!! Tluan kurang mnum aing tlampau bnyk mnum aing gula! Ekekeke nda bh~ on and off since thn, alhamdulilah him her n him or i call "them" taking care of me sooo gd!! Hugssss!! Im 96hrs!! Bila lh agaknya fr fully 36wks?! Heheheee ada yg mental sih!

p/s - always loving you hero, Md Rayyan Hamshahr, in my heart frevr n evr~

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2011-09-17T15:31:00.000+08:00

Dont you wish for your hari raya angpow lyke this...?

Three bundles of $1, total is $300... My duit raya ke...?

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2011-09-16T22:09:00.001+08:00

Md Rayyan Hamshahr, loving you so much hero!! You're my love, now and then... You're a soul cant be replace... You take this breath away with your antics... A world wont be complete without you... You're my true inspiration... To have you in my life are the wonderful gift ever, love you so mucccccch shayaaaang Rayyan!!!

HAPPY 6th WONDERFUL YEARS MD RAYYAN HAMSHAHR!!!

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SHR

2011-08-31T08:05:00.001+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN EVERYONE!! Dpagi raya, kalat mata dn non stop brasin, uuurrrrghhh!!'open house' later fr babah's families aftr balik dr kubur, not sure if we wl b going joining them bhari raya.....And lunch tyme, my mom's mom (my nini lh tue kira kn) pun open house evry tyme puasa ptama, all my aunties uncles cuzens and nieces and nephewd wl b around, yeeezzza~ wl b joining them either bhari raya to all my nini's dpnanjong anie? Not sure... Slalu nya stay drmh sja pon~Ok thn, see ya around blog! Wl update again abt our hari raya...

2011-08-08T14:34:00.002+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways]
~ post # 174~

HAPPY RAMADHAN ya all, smoga puasa dan amalan dterima oleh Allah jua *amin amin amin*

and oh! i knw people trying to pissed me off and they are waiting the right time to attack me! even in this blog.... a big issues! they're waiting me to update and they wl talk evrythngs evn fr a small stories.......

well, since im so busy with my works and personal lyfe now, i dnt bother abt it tho there was a slight broken heart bcoz of them........

now i thnk i knw who txt bad words thru my shoutout last tyme regarding me and abt my BFF, si Munerah..... well! aftr 1-2 yrs it came to my sense now!!!

im so glad im still hv frens around me!

just loving you!!!!

p/s - dear SF, salam Ramadhan to u and ur family....... jgn ponteng puasa!! kisses and hugs fr all ur wonderful sons and daughters..... lotsa lots frm me~

2011-06-16T14:01:00.000+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 173 ~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU DEAR SF!!!! may ALLAH bless u n ur families! longlive and mudahan murah rezeki!

2011-06-02T08:52:00.002+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 172 ~

i saw my primary teacher this morning, he drove a big white fortuner~ i realise the plate no thn whn i pass him, i just so excited to see my teacher inside!!! he's the best teacher!! he taught me (SR Penanjong, 1999) Maths, Geo, Sivik and Lukisan too..... i missssss my teachers!!! i dnt knw shall i do gatherings? but i cnt find some of the teachers =(

i hv my unbelievable dancer he he he.......

2011-05-16T12:06:00.003+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 170 ~

somehow some person dont know how to appreciate another people around them, those make me super sad..... cherish the moments with them as they still alive and still hanging round between us....

p/s - i missssss my SF =D bn a long tyme hvnt see SF around too, but i appreciate SF around me!!

2011-04-14T16:16:00.002+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 169~

Endless Love Lyrics (Duet with Diana Ross)

My love,
There's only you in my life
The only thing that's bright

My first love,
You're every breath that I take
You're every step I make

And I
(I-I-I-I-I)
I want to share
All my love with you
No one else will do...

And your eyes
Your eyes, your eyes
They tell me how much you care
Ooh yes, you will always be
My endless love

Two hearts,
Two hearts that beat as one
Our lives have just begun

Forever
(Ohhhhhh)
I'll hold you close in my arms
I can't resist your charms

And love
Oh, love
I'll be a fool
For you,
I'm sure
You know I don't mind
Oh, you know I don't mind

'Cause you,
You mean the world to me
Oh
I know
I know
I've found in you
My endless love

Oooh-woow
Boom, boom
Boom, boom, boom, boom, booom
Boom, boom, boom, boom, boom

Oooh, and love
Oh, love
I'll be that fool
For you,
I'm sure
You know I don't mind
Oh you know-
I don't mind

And, YES
You'll be the only one
'Cause NO one can deny
This love I have inside
And I'll give it all to you
My love
My love, my love
My endless love...

*************

my stomach full of butterflies now =) i hv him to care of me.. i hv t soul i nd.. just waiting fr t big day! i reli hope it wld b come true no matter wht happen... i pray so hard btwn us.. but yet, im not sure abt it.. but i wna to myke mine urs =) coz i feel u r t last.... where's faith leading us.... where's the journey bringing us.... happiness or nothing at all... happiness wht we re waiting fr now... pray! and what am i talking about anie eyh??!?! hmmmphhh.... any candidates? ha ha ha...

*************

this wht im feel about... (Hugh Grant - Way back into love)

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere
I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

****************

bila tah ku blurih tue? hahahaha......

i missssssing you greatly boo!! im looking smthng dump to do, i thnk i wna marry you~ aku hntr pinangan buleh?? krg mlm aftr tahlil??

bh cincalu dulu... aher udh (alom plng pkl 5 nih) kn muleh muleh muleh umah baah.... mrh krg kekasih hati i atu mun aher muleh... i dh jnji muleh awal.... dia tngah... memasak~ tp bkn ntk i.... ntk perut dia dh! =D loveeeeeeeeee you!!!! missssssss you!! love you ayah ;) urg sayang ayaaaaaah!

**** al-Fatihah fr little boy, Rayyan Hamshahr *amin*

2011-04-12T16:00:00.002+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 168~
i hv a high fever since monday =S a but yet im not going to see the doctor, i also hv a bad tonsil and headache.... haaaaiyooooo!! i cnt drink or eat, hard to swallow...but gd news... tho my FATS alom go away, at least my weight mnujam kbwh tarus since 2wks ago...... WOOOOOOWWWWW!!!

on sunday went to pntai serasa, frm morning til nyte w JJ n hubby's frens.... nda karing gusi, ada2 sja kn dktawa kn atu mcm nda pndai abis ceta bh....

i thnk somehow the hot weather bg aku high fever jua, yrstday pksa a dear fren of mine dtg k ofis bfr 3pm (psl aku kusut abis rh ia)... pksa dear fren atu mnawari aku psl my body was TOO WAY HOT... rindu plng ku kn kdia anie he he he.... dear fren of mine is a vry gd fren, my loyal listener and my vry own spongebob! ia ckp "bg malo basar2 nya btawari" i just said "jangan waaaaaah" thn i hugg this person hehehee.... love to spend some time w my dear fren...

td tngahari went to ofis my mummeh, ia lg smbung urut aku he he he... i just love being pampered! kn kn SF?? =P tyme kna urut my sakit smua ilang but now i feeel so paning, my tulang2 anie lunggar rasanya.... i nd to b service! hahahaha.......

owh!! i saw si kwn td somewhere, niceeeeeeeeeeeeeeee brooom brrrrrrommmm!! nice bonet ;) kimsalam eyh ragat ragat ragat ragat ragat bnrrrrrr...... brbaloi lh mbali mahal2 psl it was SUPER COOL!!! just dnt talk w him sja td, dnt hv any chances... bn a while i hvnt see him jua, psl ia cuti.... mmng mgasa golf sja nie kwn ku seurg atu......

i misssssss you so dearly!! i missssss you greatly!!! i missssssss you big big!!!!

why am i so stupid... finger crossed!! hoping and praying so bad so our dream wl come true no matter how long it takes..... praying hard! AMIN AMIN AMIN AMIN

*al-Fatihah*.... loving you little boy!!

2011-03-30T07:38:00.001+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 167~
25/03/2011

we hv five kittens at home!! yaaaaaaaaaaaay!! their name, twilight, breaking dawn, new moon, blackberry and nokia...... alhamdulilah they're jinak and can poo & pee-ing in their litter!

30/03/2011

i dnt knw why this song in my fav song all t tyme fr this mnth, it is a must i play it evryday or as long as i drving my MsWhitey.... whom am i misssing eyh?

and this song, owh well... my everlasting love song ^.^ i missssss you HamShahr!!

nowadays i always and always going insane!! aaaaaah!!! wht am looking fr? wht am waiting of??

actually, wht's my life searching fr...... and yet i cnt find it either.... stupid feelings!!!

i knw u miss me coz i miss dearly abt u too.... cnt wait fr our nxt meeting! breakfast or lunch?? hheehee....

aaaaaaahh..... fr me it's hot news but fr someone else it's not...... i dnt evn care wht he did or said bfr but just one thng.... this is the biggest prob fr me, why he blaming someone fr dated with me?? whyyyy..... tht was his choice, he can say yes or no or totally rejected me, but why he still continue those way?? and why whn he felt lyke tht way he still asking me fr stupid thngs evntho his mindset was already there?? why he kept on pushing and pushing me?? why he tied a knot w me?? WHY?!

WHY WHY WHY!!!!! WHY YOU BLAMING PEOPLE ABT US?!?! WHY?!?! CANT YOU THINK RATIONALLY?? YOU HV UR MASTER GRADUATION THT YOU PROUD OF EVN A BIG SMART FAMILY, BUT WHY ABOUT THE SMALLEST THING YOU CAN ACT THAT WAY??? PLEASE USE UR MIND, THINK BFR U WNA SAY SMTHNGS!!! DNT JUST SAY SMTHNGS W.OUT THNKING OTHERS FEELING......

im not backing up tht person, but i feel sad and guilty fr wht u had said to him.... he is ur fren, he is my fren, he is my prnts's fren.... dnt u feel shy abt it? dnt u feel regret? dnt u feel respect?? i bet u dnt hv any feeling abt anythngs at all.... i wonder if u hv feelings or not...

one more thng, evntho im so closed with them more thn evr, evn i told our stories to them, but they NEVER HATE YOU!!! NOT EVEN A BIT!! why u acting tht way? COME ON LAHHH..... YOU CAN THINK!!! YOU HV BRAIN!! why u cant act professionally?? kn d apa tah utak atu?? phiasan gnya?!

aftr all, bcoz of tht... i lost my respect on you!!!! i dnt care wht u say now, placur kh bni2 murahan kh, bni2 pkikis harta kh, whtevr lh..... as long as aku pnya pndirian yg TAKKAN ROBOH krna ulah mu yg buduh atu... i feel ashamed bcoz of u.... i feel ashamed to knw you!!!!

p/s : sperti kacang lupakn kulit bnr.... it's ok lh NOT only you the frens.... kurang satu kawan ndakn mbg matiiiii oiiiiiiii!! nda rugiiiiii~ satu ilang sratus buleh cari lg kwn atu.......

2011-03-18T13:09:00.002+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 166~

owhhh mna si bf ku anie ahhhhh.... me kn mnta bali kn ucing buleh?? persian kitten bh! satu sjaaaa~ adiah ntk busdeh me taun anie...... =X buleeeeeeeeh lh~ u syg me kn??? =PP mana si SF aniee aaaahhh ehehheheheeeeee kiyut bh muka drg anie mbg kn mgoring! sapa tak tempted mau satu ;)or anyone yg ada persian cat atu bg deh aku seikung! =P

it's bn awhile i tak pegi swmng, almost a mnth dh! ngapa nah?? damam dn selesma, mun udh baik damam/selesma ku anie ahh dtg cha bebalik tue... so means by that mcm evryday nonstop since2 anie aku brasin selesma sja smpai mbwa k damam..... evn last ku swmng anie grrrrrrr i cnt do any laps! kurang dr 6laps atu pun bnyk bhanti! sasaaaaaak ku! myb esk lh ku try mau pegi swmng insyaAllah....

i loveee tue my post # d atas ah! peeeaceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

apa lg ada? i dnt knw =S

frst tyme ku ikt my prnts ngatam padi wlu halnya few yrs sdh drg anie btanam, gila atu ya gatal2 taus bdn nda ku suka pdhal padi atu dsiring titian jua sja... the kids plng iski ngatam anie bh, almaklum kna bg upah, drg mau smpan duit ntk swmng sma mbali uno spongebob dhuaho.....

owh! i hv a syrian hamster seikung! gf abg ku mbg he he he... damit plng lakat, namanya bkn lg si Cordy tp KusKus.....

si SF slalu mbwa aku meng-keaw tiaw sma m-teh tarik, aku saaaaaayang ia kalie ah! ia pun sayaaaaaaang bnr2 rh aku! jgn jelesssssss~ tQ SF slalu mbwa aku breakfast/lunch... baik bh si SF ku anie, jgn pndang ia sbalah mata tauuuu! mrh ku tue! aku sja buleh pndang ia~ SF SF ucing persian buleh?? *memajal pisin bni2 anie*

MsWhitey ku sdh bservicing this mnth, alhamdulilah sanang dn nyaman jua ati, d race2 pun nyaman sdh bnyi nya mlacis2.......

otw kn nguruskn bdn kekekekeekee dr dulu nda pun mauuu kurus nya!

April, aku jmp si doctor lg..... last tyme ia bg aku sleeping pills 10biji tp mkn bila perlu sja, sma ubat depress ku mkn stiap mlm ntk 5mnggu..... so far, alhamdulilah alum ku kna "serang".... mun ku stop mkn ubat atu takut ku jua kna "serang" pksa discuss sma doctor.... sma i jmp doctor ultrasound nti on April jua...

masa anie aku gila mkn keow tiau sja, stiap hari mbali dn drmh ku masak, evry nyte... can imagine tht? hali2 saya mkn itu keow tiau.... smpai urg2 yg kn mbali kn ku lunch pun nda pyh bnyk pikir, drg bali sja keow tiau mmng ku mkn.......

2011-02-14T09:30:00.002+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 165~

last monday (last wk)i went swimming at stadium aftr work, and i did 18laps of 50m in abt less thn an hour and half!!! weeeeeheeeeee!!! i cnt believe i can do tht! 2laps to go thn i can go fr 20laps all t tyme.... stamina! i knw i can count on you, please help me too ya... 18laps of 50m is equal to 900m.... i wna go fr 1000m (1km) of 20laps!!! HIGH-FIVE!!

oh to dear SF, welcome bacccccccck! how was ur holiday?? fun? tired? btw any fr me?? i missss you so much while u were away..... and now u r back!! cnt wait to see you again!

owh... my cuz Shasha went to Aussie again to continue her study fr a yr, end of this yr i gona see her again and we go lepak at KB villa..... gdluck cuz!! dnt b noty oke? study hard!!! see u arnd in 10mnths.... no raya again w u this yr, soooobbbbb!!

her eldest bro, now hv a nice BROOOM BROOOM..... my car dream! Porsche yooooo yg sport, yg boxster yg dua pintu ah.... my my my!!! nti aku mau ikt ia, aku mau duduk dlm keta idaman ku atuuuu!!!

went to Miri w my bro n his gf last friday, during my off day of course.... i loveeee McD!!! i love to eat their buburrrrrr... and i went fr starbucks too, nyuuummm!! tmoro we planned to go there again fr my delicious bubur ayam McD!!! and i want prosperity burger!!! ohhh bro, treat me oke?? i knw u do =PP but i dnt wnt starbucks lh, just McD.....

i was admitted fr few hrs at ER RIPASH last errrmm cnt rmbr whn, tuesday myb.... dripping, nurse tyke my blood sample and xray too, i hv a heavy headache evn now i still hv headache.... on sat, a nurse called me, on nxt mnth i hv an appointmnt w SOPD (surgical outpatient deparment, i wonder wht's wrong with me... i hope somethings SERIOUS so some people wl b regretting~

this wednesday i hv an appointmnt too my doc Jac in aftrnoon, i might ask fr another medication and some sleeping pills.... nyasal tak ambl bila DrYus offer me some =S

wht else?? saw a nice car this morning or all the tyme with a nice man inside, a smart gd looking man but one thing.... they're SMOKING!!!! whn frst i saw t cars "wooowww nice car nice man inside" but whn saw them w their cigar in their mouth i went "eeewwwwww not nice eyh, sayang sayang sayang, keta lawa muka ensem tp bsigup" and i turned my face away, cancel kn flirting..... i thnk tht's all women hv in their mind eyh whn see men smoking??

tuuuppp tuupppp tringgg tringgggggg.... i got a golden cuklet frm my chinese bos open house last saturday... there was a lion dance w 3lions, bunga api and badil papan... went there w my abg Ramzy!!

im misssing my chenta Munerah!! nowadays she's so busy w her study..... adooohhhh.... i just wna say gdluck in her studies n may she get a flying colors in her graduation this yr!!!! she's my sister she's my fren she's my bestfren she's my family!

congratulation to young man Syaz on his O'level, im proud of ya! he got an O fr his english and im sooooooo proud of tht! coz i did my eng twice and i still cant get an O hehehehee.... he got 4/5 O's!! i pray fr his successiveness ahead!!

tmoro is public holiday, might go to Miri too... i hv some works to do tday... and boss are not around!! aaaaaaaaah i smell freedom!

2011-02-01T14:21:00.002+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 164~
last friday went swmng at tutong, and i did an excellent improvemnt! frm 8laps i can do fr 14laps w.out a stop within.... wwohhhhhhhhhhhoooo!!!

and since 3days i hvnt go swmng and i feel weird =S

i lost some weight too!! he he he

i cnt eat, anythngs =S or else i gona hv a bad headache or migrain, almost painting or black vision... nya urg kanyat2 bh kpala ah ada vibration! yeeaah since ku mkn ubat atu lh... hope this wl myke me more losing weight! hahahahaaa

wht else?? pampering myself... .siuk =)

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!! got angpow too =)

p/s - i miss you, dear you.... i misss Jovaaaaaaaaaaan

hving holidays til monday ^.^

2011-01-27T08:57:00.003+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 163~

i met my doctor yrstday aftrnoon and he gave me sertaline, i hv to eat evryday and fr yrs... and in a mnth im going to see him again, to knw how i feel aftr! those medication is to keep me kicking and alive!! and i hope i can count into so i wont b this way again....

(Sertraline hydrochloride (trade names Zoloft and Lustral) is a generic antidepressant of the selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor (SSRI) class. Sertraline is primarily used to treat major depression in adult outpatients as well asobsessive–compulsive, panic, and social anxiety disorders in both adults and children.

The efficacy of sertraline for depression is similar to that of older tricyclic antidepressants, but its side effects are much less pronounced. Differences with newer antidepressants are subtler and also mostly confined to side effects. Evidence suggests that sertraline may work better than fluoxetine (Prozac) for some subtypes of depression.

Sertraline is highly effective for the treatment of panic disorder, butcognitive behavioral therapy is a better treatment for obsessive-compulsive disorder, whether by itself or in combination with sertraline. Although approved for social phobia and posttraumatic stress disorder, sertraline leads to only modest improvement in these conditions

Sertraline also alleviates the symptoms of premenstrual dysphoric disorder and can be used in sub-therapeutic doses or intermittently for its treatment.
Sertraline shares the common side effects and contraindications of other SSRIs, with high rates of nausea, diarrhea, insomnia, and sexual side effects; however, its effects on cognition are mild. The unique effect of sertraline on dopaminergic neurotransmission may be related to its favorable action on cognitive functions

Similarly to other antidepressants, the use of sertraline for depression may be associated with a higher rate of suicidal behavior. Due to the rarity of this side effect, statistically significant data are difficult to obtain, and suicidal behavior continues to be a subject of controversy.)

and i met my SF too, we went breakfast too!! thanks SF!!! i misss ur Jovan smell!! can i hv one? and some present in two wks time? myb chocolate frm mark spencer heheeee

in a day i hvnt do any activities and i feel bored, i was not going swmng yrstday but i went to polo club to play bowling w the girls frm BME.. it was fun indeed!! but it feel weird =S and owh, i dnt feel i lyke polo pool =X

tutong's pool pump is broken which means tht i cant go swim there within this wk, so stadium is the only choice.. ok lh~ at least i can do 50m he he he

2011-01-25T19:48:00.006+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 162~

HAAPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUNG MAN, SYAZ!!!! May Allah bless you and success in ur lyfe amin!!

- i did my 8laps breaststroke but too bad i cnt myke it in one go... i hv to stop 2-3times within a lap... i just did one completed lap w.out! eerrrrrrrrrrgggggggghhhh =S i feel so tired and empty evntho i was inside t water!! uhuhuhu NOT GOOD!! almost drown? NO lh.... i can float but less than a minute, gd? NOOOO!!!

ngikut firasat.. apa nah? malash tah ku gtau hehehee, it's btwn me n her sja~ ewwwaaah

errrrrmm...

dear blog, you're so busy with your three today and we were not talking just a distance of signals.. and , he's so handsome... so glad to see you again, JANGAN PERASAN!!

did upload some pictures on my FB too...

i decide not to inbox you again, i will try so hard! i let you text me first and misisng me! heeeeeee

2011-01-25T14:57:00.001+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 160~

tluan bserabut utak atu, bnyk pkara nda tantu kn dpkiran kn, tr rujuh tah pulang pagar tmpt kaja atu... bisaaaaaaai kn!! atu bru namanya jobless nda dpt d control aku ah!! ngek ngok, sambal belacan aku anie!!! tp ahernya tkana ku jua stelah skian lama ku mnunggu

2011-01-20T12:34:00.004+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 159 ~

my bumper kna langgar lari tyme ku dlm ofis and i just realised it whn aku d ofis ripas =S not gd!!! teruk anie waaaaah~ nasib sja aku pnya lampu tak pacah gnya pichak, gggggrrrrrrrr!!!!! i hv to fix it tmoro, nasib bos yg mbyrkn tnpa potong gaji, yehaaaa!tp alom ku dpt cat psl ujan sja..... (keta sumpak, lps usai, and my full speed klu stress)

anie 25/01/2010

aku tlanggar tiang tmpt kaja, my bodykit sumpak! ggggrrrrrrr!! kna "kacau" perasan ku lg dr dmlm lps balik swmng

psl swmng, an improvement lh! the biggest improvement!! i did a 7.5laps of 50m w.out stopping in a half way~ 50m maaaaaaaan! a long distance! thanks fr the coaches yg support aku =D well, i did try since last thursday and since tht i go swmng evryday either at stadium or tutong, and this aftrnoon i wl go again, wna try 2laps of 50m w.out stoping at t half way n aftr frst laps, wna do continuous 2laps! hope i can do it laterrrrr~ amin!! if i can do 2laps w.out stop i wna try fr 6laps, if i cant... i wna do 10laps tday! weeeeeeheeeeee

owh yeah, my sport activities are not only swmng nowadays, i also join fr petanque or we call it pitong, i met this lady n she invited me to join her~ weeeeeeheeeeee!

nxt wk i wna join her again, this this i wna do swmng frst to gain some stamina n do some laps thn..... pitong!!

my schedule so far i hv planned, it might change esp if i wna go fr swmng -
wednesday n friday - english nyte class fr O'Lvl aftr works
sunday - rest or swmng
saturday - swmng
monday, tuesday and thursday - jogging, pitong and harun's gym
friday, bfr calss 7pm pun smpat tue~ evn fr wednesday aftr class, buleh lh swmng! boooohhhhhhhhhooo!

wht else?? i missssssss youh SF =P

wna go lunch sma mummeh JJ ku... kn ambl gmbr ku yg pling kiyutttt ah! hehe

2011-01-18T15:05:00.003+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 158~

this feeling is NOT gd!! bnrrrrrr!!!! i hate to feel this way, tears evrywhere and anytyme!!

just imagine tyme mkn tadie, i just said "jgn tah ngacau aku dulu, jauh2 tah dulu" i doesnt mean "anyone" but just my feeling thn i cried tyme mkn ah... rusaaaak my feeling nowadays =S

dear SF (naik pangkat udh bkn lg si RF but SF)i missss u so crazy n apart of us ='( those feeling haunting me!!! and i lost my control!

this morning, i went early to t ofis at 7am, but i zoomed off by 160km/hr!! pksa buat cmatu spaya dri tenang, had to pigang stering bnr2 coz ada jua dlm hatiku bniat mau mlapaskn stering atu while blaju....

and during my lunch tyme... i feel t nd mau pkai roundabt gdg ah pdhal aku nda pndai... nasib tak turutkn rasa ati =S

why lh my feeling anie kna rompak!!! ggrrrrrr

2011-01-17T10:47:00.008+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 157~

im gona misssss dj Dean around KFM!! i hv to set in mind, he's now in a very long vacation not retirement! awwwwwww~ i did cry kalie ah, twice!! not gd!!! thank God too them not see me crying hehehehe what a great nyte spending some tyme w them tho it's late!! at least, i can greet Dean =DD sad n crying moments eyh tht nyte!

"stupid people" hahahahahaaa... but it mykes me cried too!!!!!

i wna wish dj Dean very gdluck and all t best in his future!! im gona miss his craziness, his dancing, his wig his MJ hat and his funny antics!!!

2010-12-31T11:50:00.001+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 156 ~

30/12/2010

Was going to tutong swmng pool in t aftrnoon w NG n cuzzies, kalie tiba2 siuk swmng at 4pm drg sna halau kmi dr kulam >.< drg srh swmng rh kulam knk2 psl nda kn bcuci.... Isss lyke whaaaaaaaaat?!?! Cua tah lps kmi bnanang bru tah mcuci kulam atu, mental lh pokok nya kami...

Kalie balek rmh bkelaie abis w my sister psl anknya, gilaaa eyh! Frst tyme tah ku mrh bteriak kajar2 anie smpai urg dlm bilik ku pun mnangis bh apa lg aku lps bkelaie atu, banjirrrrrr!!!!!!! Shial buduh gila babi phaluiiiii bnr tah kdia atu!!! Ckp nda srupa bikin pnya bni2!!!!! Sanang dh idup dlm rmh anie tp eeeeyhhhh!!!! Kmati ulahnyaaa!! Kn carai lh itu lh ini lh tp shiaaaaal!!!!!!!!!! Jgn ilang ksabaran ku yg bnr n basar, abis kalie ku rusah kdia atu.... Brg yg dpnjami nda prnh dhargai, naaaaah rasakn tia uleh ku.... My fon bfr anie, SE ampai2 smpai anknya ngacau, apa lg aku... Ku umban eyh, apa yg rusak nah? LCD screen nya, puas ati ku!!!! Eggggggg!!!! Luan d asuh talur nya atuuuuuu!!!!!!!! Smua nya indung sja!!!!! EeEEEGGGGGGGGGGG!!

Kalie mlm, hntr my fren balek bfr tht kmi snggah slalu tmpt somewhere, weeeeheee! Kna bg bonos jua aku ah, terima kasih syg ku SF!! Murah rezeki u amin! Nxt wk mnagih lg bonosss ah hehehee..... Tht made my day!!! Aftr a rough sheetness at home >.<

I missss youuu SF!!!!!

I missssss youuuuuuuu tooo!! God!

29/12/2010

Spend my whole day w my cuzzies d mall gdg, liat wyg main d uni n coffee bean, smpai rmh waaahh pkl 1 pg! Lps lepak dr gdg abt 12mlm huhuhuhu

******

Went to KB fr sleepover! I loveeeee them! I loveee baby Thanya!!! I feel lyke home n feel "the family" bond there =) i wnt tht w my prnts n siblings but.....????? Thanks Guys fr welcoming me there! Nxt tyme lg insyaAllah.....

p/s - somehow tht's t reason why i dnt lyke to b at home, klu tah buleh jln sja or jrg balek rmh... Itulh punca nya masalah dalaman ku smpai snggup mcederakn dri sndri mbiarkn sakit, bkn kn bunuh dri tp mlepaskn rasa stresss....

Harap maklum, slmt mlm.. Assalamualaikum, Allah mberkati kalian, amin amin!!

Hapy new yr 2011 ya guys!

2010-11-22T13:17:00.000+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 155~

21/11

Had a great lunch w my mummeh JJ n hubby somewhere in Delima, thanksssss!!! Superrrrr thanks! And thnks fr evythngs u guys do to me! I love u guys too!!

Owh yeah, last saturday was going out w my frst cuz, Gboy n someone tot he was my bf! Booooohhoooo! Funnny u! Of course if i hv someone special u r t frst i wl tell! And super nice to talk n hang arnd w u!! Missssssss u more now!! we nd to peer to peer flightcontrol

Last 2nd, fr my 5th/6th tyme i was bled fr a gd cause again! And i was in a big suprise coz i gained extra kilos!! Tkajut baruk ku eih! Mana jua, i wasnt do any exersice nowadays, no swmng no crunches no cardio just filling my tummy up!

But hey! Starting this wk i hv my swmng n cardio! I hope those help me soon, and stop frm keep munching foods evry hrs!

Swmng? Was great! can do end to end at 1.8m tho i dnt knw how to float he he he

Dear my chentaMunerah, im missssing u greatly fr almost 2mnths and im looking frwd to spend evry mins til late nyte non stop end of this mnth! 3D soon? Or harry potter? Or healty activities? This december i wl b staying in brunei fr knk! Ha ha ha, my prnts go umrah again =) so cnt wait to spend tyme w u!

I dnt knw why it's killing me slowly! And i dnt knw why i keep dreaming n hoping fr tht any tyme soon! I wnt someone hv my DNA n apart of me too! I wnt to b a mother =)

Im miserable within t smilies!

Endlessly i tried but in t end i died, hopeless.....

2010-11-20T13:15:00.000+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 154~

Dear RF, sory fr being quite fr few days n wks, coz i dnt hv any krdt to txt w ya tho i reli nd u to talk w! Mcm i was incomplete w.out u! Signs of it? Where i shld break but i pushed fr speed! My mind is going somewhere else n i feel so empty! No one to cheer me up either! And easily crying whn listening to jiwang-ish songs too, hard fr me to say NO!

Somehow, in our quite-ness it myke me thnking.. Im t bad person fr u fr not standing up on u n im blaming myself fr evythngs happened n i cnt frgive myself, so hard fr me!! Reli hard! Esp whn i saw those smiling frm them! I reli reli blame myself!! Seriously lh, i blame myself! I put t blame on me!!

They r big babies now ya? My my my! I lurve them too!!

I lost on my way to search another chapters of mine...

Im truly sory dear RF...

p/s - how's lyfe RF? Missing me much? Coz im missing evry bits of u!

2010-10-24T09:17:00.000+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 153~

Where shld i find a man who loved me as u do
Where shld i find a man who gv me a butterfly in my stomach as u do
Where shld i find a man who touches this heart w warm love as u do
Where shld i find a man to touch my hand n lead me frm here
Where shld i find a man who get along w my lyfe
Where shld i find a man who gv me a goosebump as u do

I nd ur warm loving TLC...

I cnt stop imagine how t world turns out btwn u n me

I cnt stop fantasize abt u n me where t world only hv us

But aftr all, it's only my imagination to chase on n impossible to happen..

Fr all this w u were t greatest love of all n im still counting onto it, an endless love..

I hope, my love wl stay in ur heart n it wont faded away tho i knw tht already

Tears rolling down frm missing u greatly!!

Looking frwrd fr another days to come but yet im stuck w my own imagination movers

And i fail on my own memories!!!!

I cnt b strong, tho i look happy outside but inside im misrable...

AlFatihah to my beloved nini boy and babyHamShahr, we misses u both..

Random notes, somehow i reli miss my nini boy at Bekiau *alFatihah* whn i look at t face of my babah's siblings, i saw a resemble of him.. I only hv ONE picture of him, taken whn i was 2-3yrs old, or 20yrs ago on our families potrait, i almost, ALMOST frgot how he looked lyke!!! *sobbbb*

I wnt to b w u frevr n dnt wnt to lose by ur side, i wnt to spend my days to b fulfill by ur love, i wnt u by my side!! I cnt stop praying fr tht, myb on other side of lyfe....

27/9

Exactly 5yrs ago u celebrated my special day w me w full of love.. How cld i frget tht? U bought wonderful thngs fr me to remark tht day.. And now 5yrs later u only can greet me.. And i miss t moments to b w u again =) seriously how cld i find a man as u? U r not mine anymore n u nvr wl.. I only managed to hv ur heart n secret love frevr...

Can say it's my fault im still thnking n wishing hard to b w u again, but it's not mine nor yours.. It's bcoz our heart still love each others n cnt frget t smallest thngs happened to us..

Whn i close my eyes, i just wish tday is only my nightmare n whn i open my eyes u r still there, but... Times not bing frenly w me, they took away evrthngs! I wish hard upon t stars n pray to God to travel backward.

Please guys!! Built a time machine fr me pleaseeeeeee!!! I reli nd it so bad now =(

Im reeeeeeeli missssing u a lotsa loads! I cnt stop dreaming or imagining urself..

p/s - happpppyyyy 6th anniversary my Kuliq's geng!!! Xtrail mazda honda n honda!!! 6 yrs and counting!!

Owh yeah btw, hapyyyy 6th anniversary to us too RF, ur kindness ur affection ur love are still in two heart, frever~ iLy n iMy!!! KuMissYou RF!!

2010-10-20T15:22:00.000+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 152~

aku sayang mummeh JJ ku~ =D

aku rindu kamuuuuuuuu!!!

2010-08-07T15:10:00.001+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 151~

Hapy Ramadhan ya all.. Smoga puasa tanie sharian dterima Allah jua, amin... Thru out this Ramadhan insyaAllah i wl b reciting AlQuran n i wish i can 'khatam 30juz' at t end of t mnth too..

Puasa mean can b diet fr me insyaAllah, this yr puasa trying let t two kids puasa penuh esp Haziq, ia ckp ia nda mau puasa n kaka is iski mau puasa...

Since i came back frm KB aftr few nytes there, well ShaSha talked w me a lots of thngs.. Im hving a pure jasmine green tea w.out sugar aftr eating evryday to rid out any oily inside, it tastes ewwww! But it works (sometimes) at least im hving 2-3 glasses of tht, and..

Now i love to drink a lots of water.. I read tht, drink a lots of water can myke ur body lose some weight too!! Im hving a healthy foods nowadays, boiled brocolli n carrots.. And apples to munch.. And im counting any calories in evry food i tyke.. Ewaaaaah!

Do some indoor cardio too, to help me sweating up n doing sit up n crunches fr flat stamach, so far so gd... I can see a tiny changes of tht, im proud of it!

Went swmng at stadium last tuesday w my frst cuz aftr a vry long rests (2mnths 2days) i felt gd!!! Can go end to end w.out any stops fr freestyle n breaststroke.. Since my last swmng i gained weight n i tend to lose it again!

Owh, i fit my old shirts jeans n baju fesyen now he he he he.. Hapy? Of course! Nd to work hard doing sit up n crunches!

Our bird, punai is gone fr 3days!! We feel so sad esp my dad!!! Please punai, please come back... We miss u! We miss u flying inside t house n myke ur noise, we miss to tease u esp me!! I miss to play peek a boo w u!! Please do come back.. Im sure u still alive out there... Kcian usul babah waiting fr u to come to him~

Dear u, i miss u!! U knw who u r.... I miss u being a gd listener to me.. Kn kn chenta? =P a long tyme tanie na jmp!

I was being so careless n MsWhitey had her frst injury, sumpak bh blakang ah! Stupid me! No! Stupid rock!!!
Hehehe a fren of mine gave me koala n keychain fr Aussy, ada kalie stngah taun kana param dlm beg atu~ hehehe tQ chef!!!!

Had fun w mummy JJ n her hubby, they r so nice to me!!!!

Our frst baby RTE junior is born on 17th June 2010, babySabrina! Hvnt meet her yet, congrats Jimbo n wife!!

Planning to stay at KB aftr 2wks of Ramadhan....

I wnt to kiss those three wonderful kids, i wnt to meet n hug them, just tht i dnt knw whn... Arrrrrrrghhh!!

Akuu mau lagu baru lacis2 ah, sma lagu Maria sma lagu yg bru kuar dr oven jua, aku mau smua nya...

Eeeeeeeeeih! I missssssssssssss my frens! Including YOU! You! You! You! You! And You!! (you all lh apa lagie)

I rindu si spongebob! Hehe

2010-07-05T09:26:00.001+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post #150 ~

Yrstday crusing w MsWhitey to Seria n KB fr t whole day... Had a gd talk w my cuz MinMin of Panaga n we hv a lots lots lots of stories to share! Aftr 3hrs at Panaga it's tyme fr KB villa

BabyThanya is SO SO adorable! She lovesss star flower fish bukbuk (heart/love) bee and winnie! Now she's 16mnths... I lovee spending tyme w my cuzzies at KB, abg Darryl n Shasha sja nda drmh... And bfr i was going home, always end up fr a dinner there! Weeeeeeheeeee! Reached home abt 10.30pm..

Heavyly raining went otw home and t front windscreen is scuks!!! I cnt evn see!! Hv to slow dwn n follow t cars infront of me! If morning bh, cnfrm dh accident tue coz no no light n cahaya matahari block my view...

Otw back, i was feeling so EMPTY! I dnt evn care if i hv an accident n put my lyfe to an end! I dnt knw wht strikes me and i hate tht feeling!

But im safely home, alhamdulilah!

And, later i wl b going to bndr again to meet MrDaniel and off to Qlap/Mall fr Eclipse! I wnt Edward!

p/s hving PMS kalie iatah mood swing atu? Tp awal jua lakat fr tht! Hmmphh i wonder wht bothering me.. Ada virus dlm utak pakah~

And.. HAPY BUSDEH RF!! =P iMy

2010-07-03T08:58:00.000+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 144~

I frget to wish baby Rafiq 2nd busdeh last 16th june! And Nurussadiyah on 18th! Azreen on 24th!

And, tday... One of my BFF, Lynah! On t 3rd July, hapy 23rd my fren! Kawin tah kawin! Also, hapy adv busdeh to my usu boy, usu Major Hj Abidin thus coming 15th~ sapa lagie? I dnt knw!

Yeah! 2wks more to go fr cuz Shasha finally home fr gd! Just cnt wait to go to KB villa!

Yrstday (2nd July) pamperign MsWhitey fr her 1st servicing.. It's gd! She was treated by MrDaniel! She's still incomplete! Ooouuuccch! Bila tah kn bgaya nie? Susah eeeeeih!

Wht else? Nthngs much happened lh, last tyme sja ku ke ER btambah aing sbutul, last wk! Gila yeih! Anemia ku teruk bh teruk! Tp nda plng teruk smpai btambah darah, aku plng kn mderma darah anie bh, soon soon lh~

Well my lyfe is getting better, nda plng better at most, gnya my prnts esp my mum gnya treating me much better since 4/2 atu.. Sma aku kna bg MsWhitey atu.. Tht's it! Atu gnya lh~

Wwwwwwoohoooo! Sbulan dh ku nda swmng, psl apa nah? Nda dgn ku bh, buring swmng seurg2 anie... Sma i nd to lose some fats! Nda ku mau gamok anie! I nd to lose weight again! Iatah ku nda mkn stiap ari, iatah bgnya anemia ku ada tue bh..

So RF, heheehhe nice chat w u dear~ siuuuuuuk banget! U gave me smiles and tQ fr tht too! iMy =P

~ spin it around and around on the dance floor, dancing with a beat i know, im dancing with my baby tonight it's lyke heaven on my side~

2010-06-23T11:29:00.000+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 143 ~

Well a dream come true.. My baby Whitey is here w me since 14th!!! Evry morning gve her a morning bath w a nice fav lullaby songs frm her lovers n she met her boyfie too on t 17th! Wht a great nyte they had, spending tymes tgthtr n..... HAPY BUSDEH!! he he he

And... I got my pinkeyes!! And t three kids, my sis, my bro n my mum got tht too!!! Waiting fr t eldest n his gf n my dad sja lagi so it wl b complete! Hehe

Waiting fr going to Miri either this or nxt friday, i nd to buy thngs fr Whitey again!! And mom promised to treat us at PizzaHut fr her 2nd busdeh celebration!!! And... I wnt McD n starbuck!!!

16/6 - wht a great day tht day! Whn Whitey saw her boyfie, i met chenta Munerah aftr a long tyme, brought t two kids watching karate kids and my prnts sis n her youngest joined us too fr karate kids!! Not a bad day aftrall! Of course, i lurveee 166!!!! My lucky nos evry yr!

Am i hving gastrik or anemia or low sugar? Hmmphh i wonder!

Feel lyke i wnt to cook roasted chicken n shepard pie again fr dinner later he he he

I miss t wonderful kids!

2010-06-07T12:44:00.004+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 142~

happy school holidays!!!

And happy babies day to my frens, on t 1st and 5th June! Both r baby boy, fr 2nd baby and frst baby!!

And happy 'parent-ing' to me fr my upcoming baby gurl hahaha, waiting fr t due!!

Happy busdeh on June to -

my mom! Hjh Hamedah 8/6 i love u mom!
tua Hj Said 16/6
tangahnya Saren 16/6
dj Azrul kfm 16/6
tangahnya Izzat 18/6
dj Yantie kfm 21/6

may Allah bless u all, long life, dmurahkn rezeki, dberikan ksihatan yg baik, hv a wonderful years to celebrate!!

July 17th t day cuz Shasha coming back n i cnt wait to stay at KB again!! Meet t KB-ians and baby Thanya!!

2010-05-26T12:43:00.000+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 141~

30/4 - went to Miri early morning thn at 4pm straight away went to our kg fr mnampi padi thn off to jrudong n tnjung bunut fr anothr shoping! Reached home at 10.30pm! bought 3 packets of kuaci (a nytemare fr my health), a choco snikers and a cuklet mars, vitagens, kerupoks, a pencil, eskinol face wash, ehem2, dettol liquid, ayamas products -sausages, drumet and nugget, tomatoes, rosemary, tyme, basil, 6tins of babyclam, a box of indomee, 2L of aing pisang, dragon fruits, oreo soft cake, lipton original milktea, ambi pure, 2 15W bulbs and that's it! What a super long day!

I nd to slim dwn!!! Coz kaka hjh Zur said im more chubby thn a mnth ago! Mana jua... Mkn nasi kabun sja spnjang2 anie n bnyk lagie! Psl nyaman n fresh! Hohoho dulu atu kurus sikit psl bagas btahan hsptl~ tryingy hard ntk elak mkn sja tp aku masakkn ntk prnts ku tngahari n mlm, who can resist tht? Nasi kabun lagie!

Now i knw ngapa baras anie mahal harganya, psl bnr eih pyh bnrnya bila kn mnanam padi anie dr awal~
And they r gona b bpadi again bln 8 anie! Ada dh banih padi drg~ So raya drmh padi tah kami nie and no raya fr us! Whhhhhhheeeeee~

Citcat w dady tadie abt buying a new car, bruummm bruummm.. Still my frst choice is latio nesmo! Or else.. Hmpphh a lancer or vios or komando or swift evn honda!

Owh my car is ok dh but ntah ah ada bnyi latuk2 bh klu mnakan mnyk! Sasak ku mdngr! Tayar kiri dpn gie luaran nya tluan gundul udh alum b cross~

Aku mau liat wyg iron man 2 soon!

Drg bpadi bln 8, bleh ku juin bln 9 fly fly kh?

Harapan tanpa suara (kami prihatin)

Di dalam kandungan ibuku tersayang
Amannya kurasakan
Degupan jantungmu, jantungku
Irama penuh syahdu

Kuingin rasai kehangatan pelukan
Belaian kasih sayang
Kujaga kau di hari tuamu
Andai panjang usiaku

Korus
Namun hanya harapan tanpa suara
Di dunia cuma seketika
Jasad kaku dibaluti kertas usang
Terbiar bagai sampah terbuang

Dimanakah ibu, dimanakah ayah
Bonekakah atau manusia
Anak tidak berdosa menjadi mangsa
Oleh hawa nafsu yang serakah

2/4 - pagi pegi giant n rmh mummeh JJ w sis n t kids, ptg pkl 4 swmng sma Izyan n her families.. Mlm pkl 7-9 pun aku swmng lagie.. Well! Hohoho aku dpt branang ujung ke ujung dh! A helper help me too to improve~ i nd a swm paddle~ just to smooth my freestyle~ i nd to improve n improve~

4/5 - tayar sudah b cross! Yaaaayyy!! Just bnyi bising d njin gie kn d usahakn~ later swmng kh nda ah? I nd to improve my breaststroke floating n freestyle again esp breathing n kicking~

5/5 - It's reli awhile t wonderful kids not in my memory lane.. But tnyte! Im missing them! I love u, im falling in love w them too.. Wonder how do they look lyke by now.. Bn awhile too i hvnt go there to hear some of their stories.. BabyHash is now in yr 1 i guess and babyEm is now in primary 5?! BabyDin is now a big gurl, c adik mlatings~

Aaarrrghhhh!!! How i reli super reli wish i cld hv u again in this lyfe! But jodoh not mean fr us again.. I reli wish if tyme cld travel backward too so i dnt hv t sadness n losing u~ u reli meant to my lyfe, u r my precious soul!

Now i realise wht mykes me lyke this.. I realise wht mykes me more mental-ish.. Since im losing u, im losing myself too.. Im more focus to hurt myself thn bfr and it was 5yrs ago and there's no sign it gonna stop!

Move on? Yes i am.. But the pain n sorrow in my heart not gonna heal and it keeps beating and screaming fr u..

What a wonderful yrs i had bn thru whn u were there fr me always tho smtymes it hurting both of us..

What a loser am i dont standby you that day..
What a stupid gurl am i not doing anythngs to stop you..

Im still in grief whn u decide to step out frm our love.. U knw why.. And im glad u r happy again tho smtymes i feel jeolous abt it.. Jeolousy!

Keeping our loving memories from the first sight til now and it will never faded away, that i can promise u..

I cnt evn thnk if one day u r leaving me again frevr, who gona gv me a smiles on my face n heal my broken heart.. Who gona myke me laugh w ur sense of humor.. Im praying fr ur long lyfes in this wonderful journey! Amin amin amin!

Somehow this myke me ready to 'go' onto the lyte.. So i can dream abt u.. So i can watch u all t tyme lyke an angel..

6/5 - now i knw t reason why i super less feeling sad or hurting myself or less talking or super blank feeling.. Bcoz my prescription! Yes! I am! Im not reli bjabir now~ n evrytyme whn i feel so sad i nvr tend to bleed myself or overdoses! No feeling doing tht and i hate t smell of medicine! Cut my hand? Im not reli onto it again but i wnt tht again!

I gain 2kgs aftr eating nasi kabun this days! But i manage to control my appetite to not eat over the limits! Stop eating whn i start to full and only eat fr wht i put on the plate tho it just a small portion!

18/5 - serioualy im missing u boo! All im thnking abt is u~ i cnt thnk another reason fr days passing thru w.out ur TLC! I wnt to scream ur name out loud~ i wnt to hear yr voices evry hrs~ i wnt to hear ur laughs n sense of humors~

U tyke this heart away and keep it inside ur heart~ and i knw u do ;)

20/5 - awwwww! Im hving my heart attack again evry tyme i wake up~ not gd! Evry day at least i got 5-7 strikes! Tht means my BPD is conquering me again! Evn now my heart ache-ing! It hurts!

Its bn a while im not doing my swimming abt 3wks!

25/5 - one whole day i wasnt sleep! And i feel sleepy of course, and too bad my anemia is back!

2010-04-21T23:15:00.000+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post #140 ~

#139

18th April - Met abah Izzat at the ofis n we chatted fr a while! I was so sad listen to his stories and he loves teasing me!! Im so glad i can meet him again! I pray fr his long lifes and a healthy lifes too amin amin amin, still i cnt lose him =) and i was crying! He reli reli teased me!

Somehow i reli miss my Kuliq's geng! I miss t moments whn we were one and talked talked and there was a lots of happiness! Kuliq's, miss u guys!! I pray fr ur long life n healthy life too coz i cnt lose all of u! 6 wonderful yrs n counting..

Hvnt meet dj Ayu this yr! I miss her too! I miss her latings!

Owh yeah, i was checking my lappy n found clips frm RTE14!! Wwwohhoooo i miss my RTE-ians! The crazyness of RTE14!! Two are married and 14 to go.. I bet Azmida n YJ gona b soon!! Ho ho ho~ or wl it be our Deen? Hhmpph~ how abt G-Yahya?

Owh! My BP drops! Since my morning wake up, dizziness and muntahness! Gaaaah! Not gd! And hving a pain again, my batu karang strikes me again! Psl apa nah? Kuaci!! And fr whole days i dnt drink any water!

19th - Slept at abt 12am aftr watching alice in wonderland n playing games.. Woke up at almost 5am thn slept again, thn at 6am woke up again, continue sleeping thn woke up at 12.30pm fell asleep again and lastly woke up at sharp 4.30pm! What a long sleeping beauty!!! I had very sweet dreams, two dreams to be exactly... Tht myke me in a deep sleep!

20th - now it's 2.40 in the morning n i just done watching tv where all humanity are asleep except me!! Yet, i dnt feel sleepy and currently playing games~ imagining abt my sweet dreams..

21st - cnt sleep well too! Haiiyooooo!! I nd my sleep mah! And happy 8th birthday to lil niece, Akilah!! Errrmm went swmng tadie w Izyan at tutong fr free! I was super tired n ampus! Bru jua a wk nda swmng nda cha ku fit! She treats at WyWy also! KBox at tutong so expensive eih!! A dollar per song?!?! And to dear RF, sory fr not replying ur txt and answering ur calls.. U knw why? He he he i was watching tv dbwah since 6pm and my hp was charging upstair.. Kn txting u bck at almost 10.45pm tkut jua.. And yeah my intrnt is off bcoz my fb mkn krdt! Tmoro nyte insyaAllah i wl b arnd txting mcm biasa.. No wonder i was worried abt t fon, im so sorrryyy ya.. And i wna meet u soon!! Friday i hv ujian btulis but i thnk im going w odeh's girl.. And i hv a EXTRA gd news! U wl b happy n less worry abt me.. But im afraid if smthngs bad happen too abt it to me~ i dnt knw~

p/s - im missing yew boo!! Now it's 11pm and im wondering n imagining abt u.... Aaarrrrrghhh!!! How wonderful it was whn u were here w me thru t nyte! Hug hug! Lots of love, frm sweet gulali ;)

i cnt smile w.out u~ i cnt laugh~ i find it hard to do anythngs~ //Barry Manilow - i cnt smile w.out u..

2010-04-16T22:30:00.002+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 139~

Jovan! Jovan! Jovan! Jovan! Jovan! Jovan!!

I mish u dear friends!!!! Gossip-ings!!

Owh yeah RF, nd ur view n advise abt muka dua tembok ah!!

Salam Takziah buat coach Gal n families atas kpergian ayahanda mereka, smoga Allahyarham dtmptkn bsama urg yg briman dn soleh *amin amin* Al-Fatihah..

Aku mimpi dmlm psl Allahyarham nini laki bekiau ku =) i miss him~ dulu tyme knk2 mana prnh mhargai urg dsisi.. I miss him mcarie buah durian pulu sma2 n ia kumpulkn t durians fr us.. Aku rindu kmi skeluarg bekiau bkumpul bramai2, duduk bsila mkn ambuyat n nasi kabun.. I miss t moments.. *Al-Fatihah*

aku rindukn zaman childhood ku.. How i wish i can stay frevr there...

*Al-Fatihah* fr sweet little angel too... Ibu missing u!

Hmmphh my ank buah aka ank my spupu, kak Rina.. I bet they reli mish me! Smpi c Dedek tarus lari n paluk aku! Apa lagie c Izwan yg umurnya 2taun bln 9 anie... Im hapy my kids loving me! Meriah dunia!

I miss baby Thanya dKB n her Tita too!!

I miss cuz c Anjang n Minmin! Tita aka Shasha! Chenta Munerah! I miss our crazyness!!

RF - labuk2 jntung lakat eih! And so hapy u called me yrstday =)

Jovan!! Jovan!! Jovan!!! Jooooovaaaaaaaaannnnnn!!

p/s - TQ kaka Rina bali kn aku easi n some foods! Haiyoooo...

2010-04-15T11:38:00.000+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 138~

My car still in icu! Aaarrghhh! I nd it bfr welcoming t 2nd baby! And it almost 2 mnths t car stay in t parking lot! My fault jua nda bnyi2 mnta usai rh my dad! Gaaaaaah! Later eih!

I wnt to meet my mumeh JJ and spend my tymes there!

I wnt to meet chenta Munerah and gossips-ing!

I wnt to meet RF fr ease my pains!

I wnt to go somewhere!!

I dnt to stay at home t whole day evryday!

I wnt Jenny's tortillas n salsa again!

I wnt foods frm kitchen of Jasmine too!

Guess wht? Im craving fr apples oranges n honeydews!

And im doing cardio exercises fr a almost a wk now and sweat all t tyme! I love it! I hope my weight goes dwn to 35-40kg fr very super underweight!

Bcoz u loved me~ and i loved u too... I nvr n evr to frget t way u loved me.. Coz u r w me since i was young! U r my frst love! Evntho in this real lyfe we cnt b tghtr as one big loving family, im hapy i still hv u! I dnt knw til whn, evn u dnt evn whn it wl end.. But, pls pls stay w me frevr, stay w me til t world end..

Recalling back memories..

1/ Frst tyme i met someone lyke u.. U wore orange shoe being smart n frm ht moment u tackle my heart.. U gave me t strength abt loves... Oh my! Im reli missing u boo, always~ wna stay in ur arms n feel t love again! Wnt to hear ur voice~

2/ frst tyme i met this gurl whn we were in form 1 back into 2000, and we r bestfren since thn til now! Evn our families knw abt it, and i cnt lose her in my lyfe! She is apart of mine, love u chenta Munerah! I always do! U r my best best super best fren!

3/ frst tyme i met her during my 6mnths attachmnt in t ofis.. And now she's my mummeh! I miss her! I miss to do brisk walk w her at t stadium thn we eat n play PS3! I miss spending tyme w her!

Alhamdulilah my lyfe is better now, no nd fr me to tyke care a man n try to not break his heart.. I love to stay this way til t tyme whn im ready to b heartbroken once again.. Now, stay single mingle sja dulu, bebas jua nda kna kongkong.. But not better in term of better- im still hving my depression sickness n i still hvnt meet my DrAhmed!

Somehow im still thnking hurting myself but not to kill.. I love t pain whn i cut my wrist n see t evry drops of my blood.. im just addicted to it! Abt my crazyness overdose ubat? I dnt knw wht to say.. Myb i njoy doing it too but i hate t smell of t ubat! Well can say im still doing both!

Sparuh jiwa ku pergi~ apa jiwa anie kn?sama kh dgn jantung or paru2? Or jiwa hnya satu kata kiasan?

Im spending my last tymes to njoy my days watching tv n sleeping! Mana kn sehat! Hahaha tp hey! Do u see mkn? Nda kn? So aku diet lh tue =P

p/s - boooooooo!!

2010-04-07T12:23:00.000+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 137 ~

Why whn i feel u r w me but u r not..
Why whn i feel u near but u far apart..
Why whn i nd u, but u nvr there again..
Why whn i feel u r mine but u tyke it back..
Why whn i hv u but u myke it impossible..
Why whn i feel t happiness w u but u trying to stop it..

Why whn im trying to be myself again, world just turns upside down fr me!!

Yes, this time fr sure i hv a reason why i shld leave u and t cruel world.. Coz, im no one! Im no body! Im useless! Im worthless! In this world!

Im sory to myke u feel misrable n tht way, im reli sory.. Just rmbr u r always always here w me! U always stay in this lonely heart.. 6yrs w u r my wonderful moments.. 4yrs unfulfill journey w.out u n we r seperate frm each others r just lyke t world is stopping!

Too many memories r w u, u taught me how to be a stronger gurl.. U taught me evrythngs abt lyfe nds.. U taught me t meaningful of loves n frenships.. U taught me to listen wht our heart wnt..

Celine Dion - because u loved me, r exactly fr u..

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

And u knw who u r boo...

2010-03-30T23:41:00.003+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 136 ~

16th March - hapy busdeh abg Ramzy!
17th March - hapy busdeh MrKurapak n Jakie!

17th went swmng at Anggerek w bro n gfnya n abg Ramzy! Well, my coach's hubby mhalusi my breaststroke since my coach aka his wife not there..

24th went swmng at stadium alone and met two young gurls, spending tyme w them at pool of 2m n i can swim! Ramai eih! D anggerek pun ramai! Thn off to kak JJ, my new prnts treated me to tamu selera fr seafood-ing! Well feel comfortable whn arnd them both, tho still galat w t hubby..

Hapy 12th anniversary to kaka JJ n huby, my new prnts! Thnks fr always there fr me n treating me as ur own.. Thnks fr evrythngs! And i wnt new siblings ya? Hehe amin amin amin

Starting 1st April, pools wl b open til 9pm, gd news! Bad news? I hope t prize maintain! Dnt wnt a raise by a few bucks! Expensive!

Well, im missing my frens yg slalu swmng sma aku bfr, i miss them doing their butterfly strokes esp Nuai n Suhai.. And i miss to see Dman coaching small kids.. I miss to gather all my frens in one big pool and we gossiping! Miss Gal n her kids fr not letting me feel awkward whn arnd the men.. Miss Alizam gving me advising! I just missing the moments w them! Where me can be allowed swimming at 5.20 depth.. Where i get a special treats frm all of them n whn they reli taking care of me.. A remarkable memories! Now, it just me! Alone! No frens to be w me! Not evn c Ayu! Times passing by, and evrythngs not t same.. There's no harm done just tht me n them hv our own thngs to do too.. And some of them not arnd stadium again! Hard fr me to gather all of them, stadium n anggerek, separated! Two choices fr me, can swim at stadium or anggerek, and still hv them, taking care of me during swmng tyme! I love them! How to gather all of them? Their working tyme also diff! Morning or aftrnoon shift! Aaaaahhh! Wht a gd memories t frst day i knw them!

Im not fit! I nd more workouts esp jogging or brisk walk! I nd to be fit again! And i hv to control my breathing during swimming tyme, inhales.. Exhales.. Control! Control! To a healthy life!

Yet a heavy smoker of LA! But not addicted to it! Now, say NO-NO to perlis ijau, opssss sory!

Hving an anemia.. Alalala.. Since whn eih? I knw i knw... Since february! One of t reasons why i was admitted! But looking frwd to bleed fr a gd cause (donating at blood bank) owh! hving nausea n headache! BP level dropping again!

RF, tq fr t conversation we had earlier.. Im hapy to talk w u n im still smiling, missing u greatly fren!

Niece wl turn 8 and nephew wl turn 6 on April! Asked them wht they wht as their presents, niece wld b a movie treat n nephew a piece of choco cake!

Hope my dream comes true soon! Latio! Please wait! But.. Wait 2nd choice wld b, ssayong - komando too! Hhmpphh wl see how it goes... Or porcshe! Owh! Wish i can afford tht! But, NEY! Tht car only n must b in my dream only!

Wht a small world... U were popular way back in ur youngster!

Dear RF, 28th middle of t nyte u made me smile! Even whn i post this im smiling! Funny yet memorable nyte! Heheheeee

BPD syndrome is back! Heartache! Mentalness! Headache! Insomnia! Anemia! Worst worst worst! Gaaaahhhh!!! I nd to see DrAhmed soon to prescribe my pills!

Owh! Im missing my dearly DrEzam! Hahaha... I wonder how's he is! I miss my bed at ward too! I miss t moments i was admitted! Bila gie kn admitted nie ah?

27th - had a BBQ session at my uncle Ejai's... Sotong! Kambing! Udang! Ayam! Fishball! Sausage! I was reli full!! Also early afternoon had a BBQ n bouncer-ing tyme at uncle Yunus's! Ton of pictures of t kids being vain!

This month i ate too much, so hv too hv an extra hrs to workout! Haaaiyaaa! I gain 800g fr this mnth! More kgs to go to lose!

Owh yeah.. My sleeping tyme? 4-5am and wake up at 9am! Evryday t same routines!! NOT good!!

So means tht my BPD is worst-ing!

Wht's BPD actually? Try to google it.. Bipolar personality disorder!

p/s - missing all my bilobat prens, chenta Munerah, RTE14, guards, mummeh JJ, Ayu n Ayu, RF, ka Izan, abah Izzat, OJ and cuz too! Shasha in Aussy!! God! Im reli mish her n cnt wait fr her holidays fr sleepover lyke oldies!

Hope my birthday present this yr wld b smthng i wnt too! A vacation?! I hope so n i pray fr tht tooo!!!!! Owh abg Darryl! I heart u! He he he

30th - lying dwn n watching over the full moon at the veranda late night (11pm), listening to jiwang-ish songs, crying out loud, smoking til i drop! Hidup ini tak seindah senikata lagu, malahan hidup ini hanyalah satu pembohongan belaka!!!

2010-03-07T14:44:00.000+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post #135 ~

Assalamualaikum all..

It bn a very long while i hvnt updating my blog huh...

(21st Feb) went to Anggerek pool w t family, at last bru tah ku turun anie bh~ bn a while jua aku nda swmng..

20th Feb lunch-ed w chenta Munerah dMcD, her treats! TQ chenta kuh!!

23th Feb - went to Seria and KB villas to meet my lovely cuzzies!! I just love them!! Reached home at 11pm =) drove a honda city there... Well, i cnt wait to b w them again soon!! Had a very gd tyne just around them! Baby Thanya is cute!! I love her!!!

6th March - swimming at Anggerek with abg Ramzy n Manis, cuzzies Hafis n his fren and kaka Nana n her tunang thn off to Mall Gadong, owh yeah! Wht a big day! I was treated to excaped sushi by Kaka Nana's tunang's boss! Wheheeee...

Fr a wk i was away frm home and i was at Jrudong villa...

Well, joined my lovely BME-ians to Temburung trip... And Kak JJ and me active in doing jogging/walking either at stadium or tasek lama.. We just wnt to stay fit! Boss Awang brought us to Elken! We had a very gd tyme! Kak Hjh Roy cooked a shepard pie especially fr me too!! Nyum nyum! I wnt corn soup next!! Kak JJ is so sweet to me, now she's my mother who taking cares her daughter! Heart u kak JJ!! Im waiting fr OJ fr our 'dating' tyme! Hahahaaaa

Saying abt tasek lama, went there w chenta Munerah aftr a vry long mnths of holidays, kami naik buket and fr a big round and i was truly unfit! Last tyme chenta Munerah was unfit and now i am!!! Felt so dizzy vomit and black! Oppsss!

Can say now im a heavy smoker of LA lights! I can smoke one aftr one and the effect? Dizzy all along and hands and legs are numb!!

A fellow fren is so SOMBONG!!! Tht fren wl lose me in her/his lyfe! Banchi ku mliat kdia ah!!!! Saket ati ku t way ia atu brulah!!

Met my RF last sunday aftr tasek... Huhuhu im missing RF!! Jovan please? Heheheee =P looking frwd fr our nxt meeting!!

Btw, im missing... Dear RF!! My abg Ramzy, OJ and kak JJ!!

2010-02-11T18:51:00.002+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 134~

hai there RF! Bn a while hvnt see u arnd and me too, bru tah ku trupdate this blog.. So far im gd lh, feeling better? Just little bit! Last tuesday keluar dr ward n swmng!

Thnks to my family n friends fr dropping by visiting me! And thanks to my doctors and nurses fr ur greatness tyking care of me so well~

nxt saturday ada appointmnt dripas~

Owh yeah.. Im not more active in swmng! Mcm.. Aku hampa~ aku saket~

im losing a bestfren! I dnt knw how to face it but alhamdulilah bcoz my ubat frm my doctor im can cope w it i guess.. Fr 2days dh ku mkn ubat atu, somehow whn aku feel kn stress n mau nangis, i cnt! My mood is just blank!!

My abg Ramzy n his wife are w me now! Just heart them both!! Im miss my abg Ramzy!!!

RF i hope soon enough tanie bjmp, im reli missing u!! XoXoXo!!

Lawa lagu rindu bayangan ah! Heart heart!

Btw im craving fr.. Pizza and McD!!!! Hhmmphh evn nasi katok jrudong!

Yes.. Fr sure im feeling down coz my great loss of my bestfren! I just reli hope smnthng gds wl happen...

Bh til thn~ im hving a flu~ hmmphh damam tah nie!!

My blood count is low~

2010-02-07T04:12:00.001+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post #133 ~

sory fr long rest! Im just too busy w myself!

And since yrstday im admitted =) myb tday kuar but not sure! Thnks to frens visiting me!

I wl b back soon...

2010-01-15T06:45:00.002+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post #132 ~

owhh i hv three little baby celebrating their birthday this mnth!

Happy 1st birthday baby Nanel! Wishing u can walk this yr! And.. Smoga mjadie ank yg pintar, ensem n soleh, amin!

Happy birthday to baby Wawan! I guess he's not a small baby anymore! He's a big mature man now! Wishing fr ur o'lvl this yr w a great success! I hope u can score 8 'O's amin! U can do it baby!

And happy birthday to baby Azzam!! Smoga mjadi ank yg smkin pintar dn seurg phibur hati dgn sgala yg dlakukan!! Always myking us smiles!

How tyme flies too fast to see them growing evryday w their antiqs!

Owh yeah! Guess who gona turn 1 too this yr in march?! My litttle babyThanya!! Ibu's coming to KB bfr ur Tita Shasha going back to Aussy bfr ur 1st birthday, too bad she wl not b arnd celebrating! Owh babyThanya!!

Yeah.. My babyHaziq coping well at school! BabyKilah too!! She lovea her ugama school! Ibu's now their teacher at home! BabyHarris is not doing well, he just admitted last wk! Ibu hopes babyHarris getting well w enough rest and smoga djauhkn dr sgala ksakitan yg mlanda, amin! To my babyHaziq n babyKilah, ibu hopes both of u rajin2 blajar n mjd plajar yg cemerlang, amin!

Ibu always pray fr all my kids success!! May Allah bless all my kids!! Im missing my kids!

Since 2days ago ujan sja tnpa henti! I wonder kawasan mana yg tlibat dlm banjir nie! And i wonder hows our kg look lyke! I bet ada tanah runtuh at our main road d kg nie, i dnt knw lh! Tranah sja ku drmh anie hehehe

hope ujan akan bhenti! Aku mau buat exercise!

p/s - i hv lots of babies! It doesnt matter who their prnts are but i love them! Yes! Ibu love them! Mummy always heart my kids!

Not frgetting.. Al-Fatihah fr both little baby daughter n son.. And Al-Fatihah to my nini boy.. Al-Fatihah to Sadiyah's brother.. Al-Fatihah to my familes..

To the prnts of both little baby daughter n son.. Always prays fr their happiness, tho they were not here w us now, they always stay in ur heart! There a reason why they left us early.. Allah lebih sayangkn little baby daughter n son dr us yg sayangkn both! Al-Fatihah.. Jgn mratapi pmergian mereka, relakn lh dgn hati yg tbuka.. Now, both of u dkurniakn w ur adorable kids and alhamdulilah..

Okeyh, til here thn! Cheers evryone! God bless ya all.. Assalamualaikum!

2010-01-12T10:51:00.003+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 131~

since u said im bni2 pkikis n pisau cukur, so i WONT gv u back the iphone! Money?! Wht money?! Those $300 kh!? Ntk mbayar catering kalie ah fr tht nyte! Daaaaa... Cincin?! Still i DONT to gv its back! NO!! i WONT gv u anythngs!!! Can u gv me evrthngs tht u did to me?!?!

Owh! SUDDENLY! I mean, reli SUDDENLY!!! i can do breaststroke!! I learnt a bit abt it lyke t legs but i still cnt do it bfr but yeah! Yrstday proved me wrong tht im not stupid n babal! I can do it!!!! Just suddenly yoooo! Yaaaaayyyy!!! Also can do backstroke! Now.. It's tyme to learn butterflystroke! I just nd my both hands to conquer those style and im done! Wwwohoooooooo!!! PROUD! Bfr butterflystroke i nd to 'halusi' others, freestyle backstroke and breaststroke!

Owh dear RF!

2010-01-10T18:06:00.002+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 130 ~t color="#871F78">

i wnt to blog but i dnt knw wht to post! :X

waiting fr a fren! Owhhh stomach-ache!! I bet those 6pils jamu are not fit me! During meal i puke all t foods! Feeeel reli bad aftr tht evn now, shaking or shivering agaaaaainnnn... Cnt help w those shiveringgg! Owh owh my...

dear RF, jovan musk please? Hehehee

dear chenta Munerah, missing u babygirl! Eewaaaaahhhh

dear coach kaka, sory not tyking ur lessons nowadays, i guess im still tired! But fr sure i still rmbr how to do my freestyle meh..

dear RTE-ians 14, wht shall i do to gather all of us?! Tcher Nesmah too!! I wnt to spend a whole day w funs n laugjs frm u guys!!! U r t best! Laugh laugh and more laugh til we r drop!

Missing my arwah nini laki sbalah my dad *Al-Fatihah*

Missing my lil sweet babyboy too.. *Al-Fatihah* mumyyy missing u baby!

Last nyte slept w surah Yassin, felt so comfortable an relaxed.. Bn a while not reading surah Yassin and alhamdulilah i hvnt frgot ayat2 surat Yassin til t end...

I thnk til here im posting fr #130, Assalamualaikum, God bless ya all! Cheers!

2009-12-31T11:20:00.001+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 129~

#129

29/12 - a full hectic wk drving to bndr but i do njoy my tyme! Tday, fr a last tyme fr t kids swm bfr school reopen nxt wk! 31st til 3rd i might off to KK again, just if i too rajin to join jua...

Yes! A full wk since last wk until tday, aku kbndr! Wowwww! Tired but yet fun n njoyed! Tak ku bckp blakang2 tht aku nda iklas turun bndr sja...

2days to 2010!

30/12 - a day to go fr KK! KK here i comeeeeee!! This tyme siuk tah shopping ku nie, and seafoods! Ha ha ha... Wl b back nxt yr, my frst tyme on new yr eve n new yr itself not in brunei =) owh.. I feel tday is the last! Ku pkir mlm jie adalh mlm trakhir ku.. Dnt knw why....

Fr sure my uncle Ejai n family ikt, all my bfs ikt! Ejat, Qari, E'as n E'beb! This gona be fun fun fun and lots of fun!

Pampering myself there, doing shoppings! I knw my prnts pampering me too, iatah my mom bkaras kn srh aku ikt.. Well, they knw my probs already n they support me! Their lovely daughter whom they love so much!

31/12 - I might driving my babu's car until temburung later! =) by 2/3pm im off to KK..

So i wna wish all my families, friends and readers a happy new year 2010, may this new year to come full of excitement and happiness to u all... Bsma2 bdoa agar kita smua d dlm plindungan Allah dn dpnjangkn umur ntk mnempuhi sgala cabaran khdupan! Amin!

Inilah saat terakhir ku mlihat kamu.. Jatuh airmata ku...

Janganlh ini pertemuan dn saat terakhir ku mrasai kasihsayang mu...

2010 - a new lyfe and a new style of living!

2009-12-29T08:26:00.001+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 128~

25/12 - Watching Avatar at Gaydong, alone! The movie was a big hit! But too sad i was leaking aka running nose, last mins of the show i hv to chow! So i dnt knw the ending! Nxt to me was this babu ajah, she was funny! Bab timbak2 awal2 ceta pun dh tutup mata! Gave me a smile! Hehe aku wahhh duduk pisuk2 ujung skalie seurg! Baju jadie mangsa running nose ku....

Hving a bonos flu n fever! Hahahaha....

A new yr 2010 to come and a new wish fr me!

End of yr udh and im full sdh! Bnyk yg booking aku udh this wk hehe

How come ah aku post aku liat wayang seurg d fb ku lain cha cetanya luar dr fb ku ah? Pemes aku atu kalah c Maria! Bgiling kpala ku jdnya!

26/12 - hangout with Sadiyah n Kymah! Went to NBT too fr pics! Went to pasar mlm gadong fr food n drink thn 'picnic' dluar keta bsila! Wht a cool scene! Hehe

27/12 - went to Zai's sanding w Az, Kym, Sadiyah n YJ, parked my car at Az's house n YJ drove us to there! Hehehe pkai sbuah keta jimat mnyak jimat space jaga alam skitar! Azreen TQ lanja kmi mnuman dyayasan tadie! I was RELI dehyrated! Panasss banget! Well, not all of our RTE dtg- Ajim, Minnor, Adam, Yahya n Hazlami! Our teachers pun nda! We had fun tho! Puas bgmbr! The photographers pun our frens, RTE c Deen n COMM c Dilah! Siuk puas bgmbr ma pgantin! Thn ptg w my cuzzs sbalah babah, Fahmi, Fikri, Hafiz n kaka Nana w her tunang!

28/12 - happy birthday Azez my fren! Ujan runtuh tday! My eldest bro pun pegi miri thn he bought KFC! Fr a lunch tmoro, yaaayyy! I ate a slice of pizza hut too! Thanks bro! I wnt krdt easi lagie!

My mun txt me, on 31st we might be off to KK again! Long lists fr me udh! I wnt nike apparels and converse!

Full schedule ku eih! Esk gnya ku free fr myself to hv a long rest aftr since wednesday til tday bjln sja dr pg k mlm! Aku mana kisah psl DUIT ntk balie mnyk n maintenance keta, yg PENTING.. Njoy, relax, selesa, sanang ati n such lh! Nda ku prnh bkata2, aku lagie yg mharapkn usin dr indung, nda jua ku bkaja tp nda jua ku prnh bkata2 bh... Rabu sibuk cha ku balek, esk pun alum tantu ku tranah drmh! Rasaku, mcm kn ampir sbulan aku anie jarang drmh udh kcuali mlm waktu ntk tdur?

Dulu manis skarang ewwwwww!!!

2009-12-20T10:16:00.001+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 127 ~

20/12 - happy birthday baby Eman!

I txted my abg Ramzy and he called me! Bn almost 2yrs we hvnt update-ing our self or evn meet each others! Raya-ing in 2yrs pun nda.. Ha ha ha.. I miss my abg Ramzy! And his tunang, kaka Maria! I knw abg Ramzy probably almost 8yrs by now.. And of course, we're related cousins too! Both prnts and families knw each others! Reli! I miss this man!! Alhamdulilah abg Ramzy kaja udh masa anie, dh staun stangah! Nahh.. Last news yg ku tau dulu was ia alum kaja but now? Lonngggg waaaaayyyy NOT updating ourself ya? His adeq is now basar udh! Adeq is now 22yrs n hv a valid drving lisen! Tkajut ya tadie hehee.. Yess.. His adeq is big already mahh... Miss miss miss him!! Hehehe.. His only adeq! If course he nvr frget me.. Adeq nya kalie ah.... Im so excited n hapy whn he called! Cnt wait to see him again! Kmi challange sapa yg mkin chubbyyy... I hope not me! Hehe

Owh yeah, cuzzy Ayu bought TWO of my fav chocolate, dark chocolate Beryl's! Bn a while kmi mcarie at last jmp d huaho tanjung bunut! Actually arh huaho manggis mall ada tp we dnt go there anymore! Ahahaha tht stocks fr few mnths!

Im still in love w honeydew! Pkra yg na dpt dtinggalkn since i was at teknikal!

21/12 went swmng t kids n their mom tday and guess wht?! I met my abg Ramzyyyy!!!!! Ku takul eih! Rindu bnr ku rh ia anie.. Thn ku aga kaka Maria dlm keta.. A gd relief dpt jmp abg! Abg swmng d atas tp aku dbwah mana jua kn btamu.. Dluar sja btamu! Hehe

Just in love w lagu chenta jiwang masa anie.. Bila jua inda?! Heheeee

Eih... Rupanya my prnts went to KK again fr two days! Might b kmi pegi lagie this end of yr.. Yaaayyyy!!! Holidays?! Tp if my eldest bro mau pegi jua if not, cncel lh holidays atu... I need to go to Guardian and buy Hamilton sunblock 70spf! Atu pyh mcarie! Udh ku carie bnrnya d KK but still find one!

Aku NDA STRESS, NOTTTTT!!!!

23/12 - i learnt a new style = breaststroke! A gd start at 1.98m depth w a kickboard fr more thn an hr! Alhamdulilah i can do it tho im still not gd! Payaaaahhh kaki katak ah!! Bg sanggal lagie tue! Tp dmana ada kemahuan dsitu ada jalan bh.. I can do floating too! A mnth ago i was afraid n trauma to swim at 2m depth but now proudly i can swim there! But but but... With a pro lyke my coach or Ayu watching over me, incase if i drowning... My coach said 'ngapa tah kau brani branang dtmpt dlm anie, dulu pyh2-an kn dbwa dtmpt dlm smpai kn mnangis usulmu' hehehe now aku tak kisah d umban dtmpt dlm jua =P nxt yr lagie ku sambung swmng, this end of mnth cnfrm ramai urg! Prnh swmng sma chenta Munerah tmpt dlm (psl kaki ku nda mcacah lantai) kna tagur leh coach srh bisai2.. Bet coach alum confident jua ntk mlapaskn aku dtmpt dlm atu jua ah?

'mcm dlm aquarium?!' kna mrh.... 'dlm inforium bh eih' ahahahaha

Owh yeah.. Aku swmng kn mnayang badan kh? Huhhhhhh!!!

Btw.. Now i realise aku mkin kurus! Baju lama2 ku yg sampit dh dpt pkai smula evn my sluar! Nda gie ketat anie bh! Sma sma... Now aku dpt pkai sluar size 26! Hehehehehehe atu kn dulu nda ku prnh!!! Lawa shape! Ahahaha

Jogging n swmng! Just to stay fit n maintain body shape! Dr ku basar mcm babi, bnyk sja pyakit yg dtg! Bgarak pun blimit mun basar anieee

sunday to come, a big gathering of RTE14 at Zahidah n Saiful wedding sanding day dkg aing! Looking frwd on tht day to meet all my frens! Miss theeeeem! Jussst cnt wait!

Bonos on monday! Told my dad mnta usaikn ceramin rh driver kalie babah srh aku carie dbndr n liat harganya, since aku suka bjln atu jua.. Kalie nda ku jd mnta usai ceramin, mnta cat keta jua wrna merah or biru! Tp babah mau kuning! Inda lawa! Merah or biru aku mau! Or a new brand car of latio hatchback nesmo! Wrna merah or biru or gold! A dream car bh tue.... I wnt tht latio fr my frst car! Hope my mum mauuuuuu...... Owhh mummyyy...... I wnt latio nesmo pleaseeee.... Nti mrunding mnta balie kn!

Waahhh.. Lagu uncle lawa2, suka lagu kgemaran ku yg jiwang! My lullaby songs!

2009-12-15T10:15:00.000+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 126~

10/12 - bn pushed myself to swim freestyle in the pool of 2.0m depth! Sma aku myelam! Alhamdulilah i can do it! Nda ku kna tolong or selamatkn.. Selamatkn dri sndri sja.. Was going w my cuz Ayu.. Pushing myself smpai ku nyawa2 ikan, tlimpang ku taus dsiring pool ah tmuntah2 darah (again!) smpai ku kna aga oleh coach.. Gilaaaa! Bnr2 ku pajal dri ku branang atuuu... Panas muka n mata ku taus.. Stress myb? Tp psl apa nah?

Tmoro is the day! Im leaving on a jet plane... Yaaaaaayyyyyy!! Looking frwrd fr a vacation at KK! Holidaysss w my prnts and t two kids! Pictures wl b upload at my fb...

Gona mish all the frensssss.....

Hehehehe gona hv a new jovan musk! Ada urg ngat ye psl jovan musk ah wlu batah udh.. I nd a new jovan! nyaman tah mimpi2 ku nie krg... Not t same feeling whn u buy or a present frm ur fren.. Kn kn kn?

Im glad my fren c RF is here! Bn a while not meet c RF anie.. Missing u RF! Tq fr ur supports too! Tq fr callings me, ease-ing my pain..

I nd my chenta Munerah too.. Aftr 14th/15th bru tah kami dpt swmng lagie.. I miss this gurl daym much!

To my frens at fb, i love u guyssss!!! Thanks fr ur endless supports!

Love cnt stop me frm shining brightly..

Tho im hurts, it cnt stop me frm sweet smiling! Esp whn i hv evryone on my shoulder! Namun... Mereka mlihat ku tsenyum gembira bagai tiada duka begitu indah dpandangan tapi hatiku kretakan bagai sinar purnama bulan yang tbakar..

Adakh tiada keiklasan dhati mu dlm stiap yg prnh kau lakukan dlm phubungan ini?

2009-12-09T19:26:00.000+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 125~

Rintihan hati yang lara #fb

Sesungguhnya aku telah dlukai oleh seorg insan yg seharusnya mdampingi hdup ku spanjang hidup.. Kata nya yg mrasuk jiwa raga ku telah memusnahkn sgala harapanku pada nya.. Namun apakn daya.. Aku hnya seorg insan yg lemah tak bdaya ntk mnerima smua yg tjadi..

Tak begitu mudah ku memaafkn atas sgala nya stelah kata yg trucap dr bibirnya.. Tak begitu mudah ntk ku mlupakn smuanya.... Aku hampa! Aku thina!

Dmana phubung kisah hdup ini.. Jodoh dtngan Tuhan.. Aku hnya mampu bserah kepadaNya..

Mereka mlihat ku trsenyum trtawa riang bagai tiada duka namun dhati thiris luka yg mdalam tiada siapa yg tahu.. Hnya tawa mbuat ku kembali ceria n mlupakn masalah sjenak..

Andai dsni sja jodoh dn ptemuan hdupku... Aku akur dn rela... Mgkn aku tak layak ntk hdup brbahagia... Dmana kbahagiaan yg ku perlukn dlm hidup..

Tuhan.. Berikn aku satu kekuatan ntk mneruskn pjuangan hdup ku yg dlanda pelbagai masalah.. Hanya padaMu ku bserah.. Tabahknlh hatiku....

Brakhirnya sbuah episod dlm hidup ini.. Ksakitan yg dtanggung dlm diri kini telah mnelan hdupku..

Ini lh suratan, ini lh takdir hidup insan yg bnama Hamiezatul Aniezah...

Terima kasih atas semua yg slalu mhiburkn hati ku.. Mceriakn hati ku... Myinari hati ku... Terima kasih atas semua yg mberikn ku kshsyg dn smngat dkala ku perlukn nya.. Hnya Allah yg mampu mbalas jasa kalian..

*being crazy, stooped n mental - wlu almost a wk udh ku muntah darah n slalu bdarah hidung dgn saket yg perit yg ku alami sndri, i dnt mind.. I dnt care... Aku lemah n letih ntk mneruskn hdup.. Nda ku brusaha ntk mgembalikn ksihatanku.. Ku biarkn cematu sja wlu saketnya serious, hampa ku sudah.. Aku gv up dlm hdup... *

Taken frm my fb... Wht a gd feedback frm my frens! They support me so much! Thanks guyssssss

2009-12-09T08:43:00.000+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post #124 ~

I wl b back on the 14th! Off on the 11th! KK here we comeee! My frst tyme travel alone w two kids to tyke care of! I hv to depend on myself.. Hope at our hotel hv an internet service fr free! Gd news, our hotel hv swmng pool!

A funny memory w chenta Munerah while booking tickets! Hahahaaaa frvr i wl rmbr tht esp whn it abt airasia n online ticket! Thanks fr pnjamkn ur cashcard! And thanks too fr helping me out..

Google-ing abt KK n found some interesting places to visit too! And burger king and starbucks! Wohooooooo!! Seafoods restaurang heaven on earth! Toys r us too! Hehe

Safe journey my chenta Munerah, going to her own kampung at Kuching! She wl b back on 11th but i wl b going on tht day! Aftr we settle fr our holidays bru tah kmi swmng! Just missing her! Hehe

My prnts i bet they r now at temburung, stay a nyte there thn monday off to KK mount villa fr a few nyte stays! Too bad i was not there whn they njoying t cool breeze at mount and poring!

Shoppinggggggggssssssss...

Planning wna go to KL by nxt yr w chenta Munerah, just us! Free-ing our mind n thought! Refreshing! But we wl see how it goes fr tht.. Kita mnentukn Allah mtakdirkn..

On 6th went to DST carnival, parking at UBD and a shuttle bus brought us to the HQ.. Well, we managed to see a perfomance frm Maria abt 45mins! All my fav songs and a new song too.. I love kau sgalanya, angan and bisik hati the most! By 4pm we went back to parking lot.. Also, we also went to the mini zoo, snakes! And ada ULAR SAWA! Baby buaya ada jua.. Apa gie? Aku jmp djs tp dj Ayu nda sedih ku! Smpat gie mbalie abc psl kaing bh leher ahhh panasss! Evntho naik kuda nya free or flying fox or rock climbing tp aku na join.. Maaaloooooo heheheehe.. Owh yeah, i asked HR abt new posts but so far alum ada.. Pictures on ny fb =)

Aku gembira bila diri ku mampu menceriakan hari mu, terpancar bersinar senyuman manis dan tawa riang mu...

8th - woke up early at 7.45 and off to SMJA fr ujian btulis at 9.40.. At 9.53 kuar udh ku mjwb soalan.. Thn us off to gaydong window shopping.. 4times in my world, on same place n day i was kuar masuk toilet sja! At last bru tah ku mbalie 100plus since ku tak snggup lagie saketnya.. By 11pm bru tah ku smpai rmh.. Kmana ku nah? Swmng! Sma cuz ku c ayu of course.. Tday i was swmmng tmpt 1.58m! I can do it at last! Yeeeeeeheeeee

Too bad aku muntah n muntah bdarah.. Soryyy coachyyy not reli aktip swmng tadie.. Smua trajun mjaga aku hehe psl aku na mo siap2 kn swmng.. Mana jua, dr awal pg jln... Dstadium by 2pm lps hntr my borang dSPA but swmng at 5pm.. Smpai ku trtdur mnunggu...

3days to go fr holidaysssssssss! Mlepas tension! I hope lps ku dr KK tbuka ati ku memaafkn, if NOT... pyh tah kn mgubati luka ati ku anie, usulnya nda plng dpt djait or dbg ubat.. Sedalam dalam nya saket..

2009-12-05T23:59:00.000+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 123~

My mom force me go to KK! I wl be going on t 11th w t kids! Yaaaaayyyy holidays fr me! Well.. Since im going to KK, hv a long shoping lists! And my prnts, NOT me, offer me n t kids fr our swmng gears! I nd to buy a new clear google, kickboard n swmng clothes as in bju sleeveless n sluar buntak, a new hamilton 70spf sunblock and same as well fr t kids.. They nd a new google and a kickboard each w their own swmng clothes.. Plus we nd a new slipper! Weeeeeheeee... Wna go buy fins fr diving too coz it reli useful whn learning butterfly techniques!

T kids learn how to swim too, well.. So far so gd lh wlu tmpt dlm they manage to survive or swim! Our coach full of patience! TQ kakak fr being bsabar w us but strict! This mnth sja kmi tak pegi blajar swmng.. Saving money fr KK =P

Btw, my dad might send me fr diving classes in kg Sg Tilong.... Huhuhu they supports me fr my swmng classes and now diving?! Wwooohooooo, nda gie drg mlarang aku swmng.. Dulu tyme dteknikal pyh2 ku swmng kalie ah nda kna lapaskn.. Owh just if dr dulu dh drg byrkn my swmng classes anie, pndai dh ku branang =P anie still under freestyle... Bila lh ku blajar breaststroke anie ahh? Tp freestyle pun sjamput jua gnyaa ku

Gila rindu ku kn swmng.. Almost 2wks dh tak swmng! D KK sja swmng lh... Sun burn pun sun burn lh.. I hv nivea sunblock 50spf bh tp nda brapa bkesan!

Eih.. We might stay d Empire hotel or Kota Batu resort soon! My dad idea! Im looking frwd fr swmng pool!

KK! Poring! Shoping! One borneo! T
Yaaaahoooooooo!!! Bn a while hvnt hv my outstation holidaysss...

2009-12-03T21:37:00.000+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 122 ~

Dmna ku kn cari ganti kaca yg pecah btaburan..
Dmna ku kn cari pnawar mgubati hati yg tguris luka..
Dmna ku kn cari kbahagiaan..
Dmna ku kn cari kceriaan..
Dmna ku kn cari ktenangan..
Dmna ku kn cari senyuman tawa...
Dmna ku kn cari permata idup..

Aku hnya ada ibubapa, keluarga dn kwn yg dpt ku harapkn ntk mhiburkn hati ini.. Sahabat yg slalu ada ktika ku dlm suka dn duka.. Sahabat yg telah lama idup dgn ku slama 9thn..

Tak dpt ku bayangkn jika ku khilangan urg yg ku sayang.. Ibubapa ku yg tsayang.. Keluarga yg slalu dhati.. Sahabat yg tr chenta.. Smoga kalian pnjang umur dn sehat sejahtera amin...

Aku dhempas badai yg begitu mhiris jiwa ku...

Andai.. Andai.. Smpai dsni sja aku bsma dgn smua.. Aku rela, aku akur.. Semua ini ada hikmah dsbaliknya..

Aku tak mampu lagi ntk myayangi yg lain.. Cintaku hnya kpd Allah.. Syg ku hnya pd ibubapa keluarga dn sahabat sjati ku...

Sahabat ktawa senang dcari tp sahabat mnangis sukar ntk dmiliki..

2009-12-03T08:57:00.002+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post #121 ~

Im so pissed off! My anger still here powering myself!

Im off to KK! InsyaAllah aftr 8th =) mama paksa ikt, owh fav her daughter bh, tak dpt tnggal! Esp fr holidayssss

Alhamdulilah, Allah mberikn ku seurg yg mampu mhiburkn dri ku dsaat ku keseurgan, dlanda stress dn sparuh mbuat kaja gila! Sapa nah? U! Ayu! U! Chenta ku!

DST carnival on 5th and 6th December at DST HQ.. Go or not to go? Dnt knw yet, i might bring t kids fr pony rides! I hope those games are free! Hapy school holidays my lovely daughter!

Lovely daughter has her ugama school starting nxt yr and lovely son has his frst preschool too nxt yr!

i hv a tight schedule this wk, sunday fr my cuzzy engagement day and my aunty Rosni ada majlis bkorban, monday morning going to kastam bndr w t kids, making a new passport fr each of us! KL! Monday aftrnoon also going to bndr SPA, tuesday going to RIPASH, wednesday going to KB, thursday til sunday staying at bndr, monday busy w houseworks n packing, tuesday ujian btulis and wednesday KL! Wohohohoho

Hmmphh i decide to let my prnts go to KK fr their honeymoon! No nd KL fr me! It's tho.. Nxt yr dpt pegi n cheaper prize too!

I dnt knw why am i so tired to go anywhere! Evn fr swmng! Aarrrghh!! Stress too much eih til i drop?! Honestly it's bn a while i hvnt go fr a swim! I shall gv it a break frst fr this mnth! No swmng fr me, not quit but a rest coz i knw mmng cnfrm ramai urg swmnng this tyme on sch holidays! Evn student dgn ku blajar swmng pun masa anie nda blaku, sibuk ya! Aku na mo seurg blajar, she must join too! Hehe

My frst tyme! Drive my vitara just at 80km/h on hway! Not more, less yes! Feel relax but saket tulang! Hehe

Feel so sentimental n jiwang m ngilu-ish dada tnyte...

Pack at imigresen bndr evn at 8am the que numbers already out of stock! At last, dtutong jua kmi buat.. Hv too, bsabar sja wlu dlm 3-5hari siap.. Dbndr a day pun dpt siap tue..

Bad news, i taste blood in my throat! Few times, i vomiting blood! Running nose of blood! And... Coughing blood! Isk isk... Serious case but i hvnt go to hospy... Ijab ku kn t diagnose nya nti! Pindik umur?

1/12/09 - Updates, fr sure KL cncel coz i gv a chance to my prnts honeymoon but i dnt knw if they bring t kids along this 6th to KK.. And our passport are ready to be collect! Bkirim swmng gears sja ku.. Aku pegi Miri sja nti, shopingg sna! Kcian kcian kcian!

2/12/09 - hapy birthday to gojes gurl, kaka Syasya yg ke 6 taun! I miss her! I miss to knw her stories! She is now a big gurl, nxt yr primary one udh.. Im pray fr her gd health n success on her lyfe amin, be strong babySyasya! Ohh i reli do mish her.. To see her face n smile which remind me of someone i familiar w, u! And on 20th fr abg Eman yg ke 10! A big boy udh! Also, pray fr his gd health n success, amin amin... I miss t kids! Im missing them! How i wish i can meet them! Always imagining if they were here w me..... Missing ya kids!

Aku mana stress =) bnr... Mana ku stress! (tia krg!!)

Hahaaa my swmng coachyyy Adlina! my swmng colliqs, Amy n my vry own Ayu! This december i not manage to get some lessons, too tired of swmng! Okeyhlh, jimat $15 an hr and t half to pay fr a day! Again, proudly can swim freestyle! =) im proud of myself too...

I feel so sentimental n ngilu-ing dada!

(Ornito - segala bayangmu)
(Anang - separuh jiwa ku pergi)
(Zahid - cinta ku pada mu)
(D'Massive - merindui mu)
(ST12 - saat terakhir)
(Firman - kehilangan)
(Marcell - firasat)
(CT Nurhaliza - aku cinta pada mu)
(Justin - timeless)
(Dygta - kerna ku sayang kamu)
(Maria - kau segalanya)
(Emdee - kasih)

2009-11-27T21:08:00.001+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 120 ~

Back to back fr freestyle of more thn 5x! Proud of me! But cnt do it infrnt of my coaches or someone i knw.. Hahaha weird me!! Not confident eih?

Well, it's bn a while fr my upper abdomen in pains.. A wk more i shall gv it a break to hospy..

I hv bn pushed by my coach during swmng smpai aku nyawa2 ikan.. Hahaha mluruskn gaya tngn thn im done! Nxt tyme aku blajar dtmpt dalam! Kuat ati ku insyaAllah coz someone pkir aku stoopit n babal d ajar nda pndai2..

KL here we comeeeee! 9th til 15th! I hope if evrythng settle! Yaahooooo.. Times square! Sunway lagoon! No shopping fr excp fr brg swmng n shoes!

Well hv a plan w amy, i hope nxt tyme arnd mjd our plan anie.. Just cnt wait n waiting fr t reactions!

26/11/09 - went to coffee bean gdg at 10am bfr off to RIPAS hospital to donate blood! My 4th times! I recvd a red bottle hehehe.. Just if i went to Sumbangsih Mulia, i might get an umbrella frm HSBC! Thanks to abg Farizal aka Ak Hj bcoz dgni aku! And tahniah atas pkahwinan mu nxt yr! Im missing my BME-ians! Lepak2 sja jua kelmarin til 4pm

Wht a gd day to njoy on t 26th but at nyte! WTF?!!! Spoil my gd mood!

Antaaam tah kau dsna atu!! U called me a bitch! And frevr i wl keep tht in my memory!! Diakui dn pbaiki?! Dtagur ntk dpbaiki ada pun nda! Ckp sja! Ckp aku nda nganang jasa kau dtg krmh bila nya ku damam, puluh2 kalie kau krmh brapa kalie tanie nda bkelaie psl hal buduh? Lebih bnyk kau dtg krmh tanie bkelaie dr kau dtg krmh sbgai urg yg sharusnya mjaga n ambl berat psl aku! Jgn kraja djadikn sbgai alasan! Brapa juta kalie kau mungkir jnji mu? Brapa juta kalie kau mlukai aku dgn sikap mu yg endah tak endah? Ckp sja dulu aku yg mau hanya ntk mengikat kau spaya bsma ku slamanya, tp kau sadar kh inda? Dulu bkn main romantik n mbg prhatian! Masa anie? HARAM ADA!! Bkn salahku aku brubah tp atu dr dri mu sndri!

Satu hal, apa alasan mu kau balek tnpa bgtau aku pdhal kau nyrh aku ambil duit d atas tp bila ku turun kau balek udh? Ingat aku amahmu kna d arah2 kn? Apa alasan mu? Ada kau msg/tpun aku mbgtau? Or mnta maaf? Akan ku kenang hal anie smpai ku mati! Kau pnggil aku BITCH pun smpai mati ku kenang!

Wlu kau kaya tp dlm hati jahil nda ku bguna! Ingat kekayaan dpt mbalie smua nya! Ingat kekayaan dpt ngubati hti yg tguris luka! Ingat kekayaan dpt mbagi bahagia! Aku BKN BNI2 YG GILA HARTA MU!!! Dr damit udh ku idup susah nda bduit! Nda ku mati mun ku nda bduit!

Not easy fr me to frgive u.. It hurts me daym much!

Im.. Looking frwrd my new lyfe... How wl it start.. And how wl it end.. Happiness or sadness... I cnt help myself.. Better fr me to gving up.. Im not strong to face all kind of this thngs... Lyfe nvr understands me.. Lyfe nvr listens to me.. Lyfe nvr gv me a gd feeback.. Lyfe nvr understands wht my heart truly want, a love frm a real man who can treat n respect me not gving me some rubbish/sheet-ish... Im all alone in this world, frevr!

Evntho im alone.. I always hv my prnts, my siblings niece n nephews.. I always hv my chenta Munerah.. I always hv my cuz Ayu.. I always hv my dj Ayu, RF and my coach.. I always hv my RTE14.. I always hv them to supports me evntho they knw dnt wht's reli going on to me.. But yet, they always be there! Love u guys! Love u prnts! Love u chenta!

Alhamdulilah my frens helping me out, they gving me supports and trying to cheer me up, and they are! Im hapy whn im arnd them.. Thank you! Chenta n you kakak! Im glad i hv u guys in my lyfe!

Tiada kata yg dpt d ungkapkn btapa ku mhargai dn sanjungi khadiram kamu dsisi ku d saat ku telah dsakiti dn keseorangan.. Kamu tiada prnh mbiarkn ku mlalui smua ini seurg dri.. Teman ntk ktawa senang dcari tp teman ntk mnangis bsma sukar dmiliki.. Terima kasih semua atas ksetiaan kalian! Sayangi kamu smua wlu ku tak layak myayangi kamu...

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDIL-ADHA.. MAAF ZAHIR DN BATIN..

Assalamualaikum all... Ktemu lagi dlain ksempatan..

2009-11-22T10:32:00.001+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 119~

#119

16/11

My kids learn how to swim... Well, an improvement frm Haziq, he's gd and learn faster thn his sister Akilah! He do better evrytyme i bring them.. Youngest Harris or Popoh, he's so iski playing w t water.. Evn tho bbir nya biru pucat memucat, masih ia ngusut mnta bwa k aing but tak dpt d dulur lh! Mun cha biru bnr udh + kajar2..

An activities fr whole family.. I love to see whn t parents bring their kids along n teach them to swim! How responsible prnts they r.. Evn prnts who can pay extra, they provide a coach fr t kids.. Cool!! Well, i saw w my own how t coach teach them n they hv my trust.. Hahahaa lykely mcm tah ku kn hntr t 3 kids 'bguru'...

On other notes, i can swim! I gain some skills yg ku curi blajar frm coach hehehe sory coach u guys r t best.. And, proud to chenta Munerah, she also can njoy swimming! Hehehe nti join w coach ahh..

So prnts out there, why not u bring ur kids to stadium swmng pool, only pay $2 per adult and $1 per kid (below 12yrs old i thnk) hahaha mcm promo aku ah!! Dnt mind w t money asal satu kluarga spend tyme tgthtr =)

17/11

The second lil niece this yr, a new lil gojes niece frm abg Emi n kaka Evie (dnt knw t date of birth but born in October i guess) 'Alya Bareeza At-Toheera bte Muhd Zulhilmi.. Frst is Nuratikah Thanya bte Md Aslihadi born in March.. Coming soon sapa lagie?? Hehehe

So all my nieces n nephews;
frm Kaka Didi n abg Jimi (pgarang majalah/rancangan tv Pengail) - Syakira, Daniel, Danish n Darwish
frm abg Ajis n kaka Anim - Akilah n Haikal
frm kaka Rinah n abg Emi (Sharin) - Iffah, Irfan, Izzah n Izwan (i love them!!)
frm my sister, Pijah n Roni - Akilah c kaka (Andut/alai/bibih) Haziq c abg (Boboi/ahbui) n Harris c Popoh
frm kak Cheryl n abg Adi - baby Thanya (love this cute lil baby so muchhh!!)
a new comers, frm abg Emi n kaka Evie - baby 'Alya...
(all frm my mom side and nama d dapan is my frst cuzzy.. side frm my dad is just my sister's kids n myb soon frm my ank tua Lumapas who get married last December 08) ada yg trtnggal kh? Hehehe

Im a proud aunty Jijeh fr baby Thanya, a proud babu Bibah (side affect dr drg mliat ceta Habibi n Habibah, lastly drg pkai Bibah not Bibih) fr Iffah, Irfan, Izzah n Izwan... Im a proud babu Bibih fr others... Fr my own niece n nephews, u'tush!! Dnt knw why =P owh yah... How abt baby 'Alya? Babu Mimit or babu Jijih, hahaha so many names fr me!!! But most of all, im proud dkelilingi by kids!!

Bibih/Mimit/Jijih/Amy/Hamie, those are my names!

18/11/2009

Guess wht? Im chatting w abg Bob AF2, messssraaaaaa!!!! Just missing him =) a nice advise frm him since ia sdh kurus atu jua, jgn mkn nasi n exercise!! Wna do tht...

But.. Now im hving my vry gd gastrik (NOT!!!) i dnt knw why it come back again... Adohhhh!! But dnt thnk so w gastrik lh, it bcoz of t pains frm my upper abdomen! Smpai kn muntah sja..

Again, tnyte t pain hits me again! Oh no~~~ i shall bring to hspy asap but i dnt wnt!

Im learning a new tricks fr swmmng! Hehehe so far i can do a freestyle! And myb wht we call? Errrmmm... Gaya katak but im using kaki freestyle.. Breath in breath out... I hope i can manage tht... Inda jua ku babal n bodoh kalie? Heheee apa kata coach atu ah... Just do Kicking style! Soon to conquer gaya butterfly breaststroke kh sma backstroke.. Apa gie? Gaya dolphin ada kh? Hehe but too bad i still dnt knw how to float! Takut rh aing dalam! Coach pun mrh hahaha tp sabar lh ye.. Satu2 dplajari.. So far freestyle n breathing dulu... One day i knw aku bakal kna umban rh aing dalam! So pksa b waspada now....

Busy w trainings... Apa kata c amy... Yg ku kenal dr swmng yg sma2 kmi blajar... Kmi swmmng ntk... Im fr olimpik n sukan sea yg akan d adakn dbrunei nti n her ntk international hehehe we r just joking meh....

Aku bnyk mnum aing swmmng pool smpai puluh2 kali ku btarap in few mins! Kna sindir by coach, jgn dhabiskn aing swmng pool atu..

December might be going to KK w prnts n babah's siblings.... And mama offer fr KL too!! I wnt KL! Ada c Noreen dsna sma abg Bob, at least ada dgn ku dsna hehe..

This yr raya rugi tak raya dLimbang, abg Bob batah dsna.. Mana jua.. Nda kna msg! Evn them tak dtg raya krmh hehehe

If tikets return to KL murah we wl b flying aftr 12th! Hehehee just cnt wait! I hope tikets murah, i nd a vacation! I nd a holidayssssss....

Went to swmng pool at pusat belia, my frst expression? ewwwww!!!! Frst n last to b there!!! Tmpt mndi n tukar baju dbanjiri aing! Swmng pool nya damit n dlm! Pyh ku kn blajar sna tp aing nya panas! So bad bad bad bad! Better stadium =) thanks Sadiyah fr company us =) nxt tyme see ya again... Tmoro too see ya!

Nxt outing myb nxt wk, hv a training w coaches! Kna sediakn google n kickboard kalie ah! Tak pyh beli... Im proud to say i can do a freestyle now! But not infrnt of people i knw =) my breathing teknik pun ok udh, can do back2back more thn twice nonstop! No more drinking a lot of chlorine waterr.. They r proud of me! Their adv student hahahaaa, Stay out frm aing dlm, t coaches already warn me drg kn umban d sna! Eerrrrrkkkk...

Nxt training, mnta ajar breaststroke and backstroke! Sma... Myalam ujung k ujung tnpa bnafas!

2009-11-16T06:30:00.002+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 118 ~

feeling so unwell.. Since yrstday morning hving a pain at upper abdomen along with vomit, irregular bowel and fever.. Cnt sleep too, hurts a lot! Myb decide to go tk hsptl soon if t pain no less, cnt help w it anymore...

Decide to leave my decision.. Oh man! It's a hard decision!

Missing my little boy...

Soon going to bolkiah to meet t cuz n adorable kids, cnt wait to see three of them!!

Too bad this iPhone cnt upload pictures! Evn i cnt get an url frm my facebook pics too! Haiyoooo..

Well.. Assalamualaikum, God bless ya all... Cheers!

p/s - pretty pls prays fr me if u r worry =)

2009-11-14T20:16:00.002+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 117 ~

U knw i love u?
U knw i miss u?
U knw i always thnk of u?
U knw u always stay in my heart?

Ryte.....????

Evntho evryday evryhrs we not in contact, still those feelings are fr u!!!!

Just in love w u...... Muahz!!

**********

wht else eih? I dnt knw!! Im craving fr chicken McDeluxe and apple pie!! Wht else?? Waffle frm chill v! Buttemilk chicken!! Tuna toast n hotplate japabese touhu at my place cafe jrudong! Haaaaaaaa haaaaaaa!!! Too many craving foods lyke a person lyke me hehehe... Dulurrr cha bh ahh =P

ohhh waiting my jovan musk! Heheheee

addicted to OREO!!! Evryday at least i ate a piece or two of oreo!! Blame on oreo if i gain weights!!!!

Niece finished exam already, hv few plans fr t kids on school holidays.. ogdc, wayang, swmng pool, visit to historical places, naik boat to kg aing and more!!

Errrmmm....

Assalamualaikum all, cheers!! God bless ya all.... =)

2009-11-12T22:09:00.002+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 116~

Slept ovr at my uncle Bidin n aunt Zaleha's house dlambak.. Had a great wk w them.. Thanks babu! Thanks also fr treatings me! Thanks fr listenings me! Thanks fr evrythngs! I feel a 'family' whn i was there...

Owhhh hving a hard nyte tnyte.. My BFF is my tears! Ha ha ha

Im lost to my own thoughts again!!

p/s - i shldnt back home fr this few wks... Aduhhhh!!!

Hv a serious question- wht if someone u knw or love or ur fren u knwn better or someone special in ur heart but u cnt hv.. Hving a serious sickness as in prob w pancrease/liver and myb tht person hv a little tyme but myb still manage to fight in few yrs later evn in this great technology of medicine... Wht wl u do? Wht wl u hope? Wht wl u wish fr? Wht's in ur mind...

2009-11-11T01:49:00.001+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 115 ~

owhhh RF where r u? Hit me on the fon ah! Nd u RF!!

2009-11-10T11:37:00.000+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 114~

Im hale and hearty =)

Alhamdulilah im back to t square one again~ just hoping this tyme i wl b ok if not pun i dnt mind again lh, bdoa dn bserah pd Allah sja =)

Prays fr t happiness n gd health too..

Feel better but still in big pains (dlm hati, cari nahas tah kau lagie) nd more fluid... Owh yeah, im not reli into eating since last wk and my weight goes dwn dramaticly! Hehe proud? Myb.. Nd to workout too to b fit again! I nd jog at pntai and tasek lama! Dnt wnt to gain any extra extra grams again!

Just cnt wait to join my prnts ngatam their paddyyy.. Tday was great n fun!! Had a gd laughs w babah's siblings =)

I feel december i cnt join chenta to kuching! Hmmmphhh nvr mind.. One day i knw i can bls dendam fr all my dreams to come true.. But chenta, bkirim baju's' ahhh hehe

p/s - if u r worry abt me, pls prays fr me yaa =) But so far im cool.. Nd supports frm evryone too... Thanks..

Mentally sick n physically sick too! Daymmmmm it.....

Easily got cold n flu n fever!

Glad to hear RF is okeyh n still rmbr me hehe

it's okeyh fr me, fr evrythngs!!!!

Beryl's dark chocolate here i come!!!

Jovan musk pls wait me!!

Kebjdjspvhufndnowppweyyrrumwbcbnz wkgmorpakvr oanfbrowpqjgrbroanvrk eopzbrheoskdpspLm. Dgkdbvwipavwovv ehdhdnnzznoa wobfbrndjskwpjdbeeb ejbtiddoa

EQUAL to... WHATEVER!!!!

2009-11-09T11:26:00.000+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 113~

HAPPY BiRTHDAY chentaaa Munerah!!!! Allah sentiasa mberkati mu.. Allah sentiasa mberikn mu ktenangan... Allah sentiasa makbulkn hajatmu.. Smoga bjaya dlm plajaran.. Smoga bjaya dlm mcari pkerjaan nti.. Smoga bjaya dlm khidupan... Murah rezeki, umur pnjang, bdn sehat.. Amin amin amin!! Aku sentiasa dsisi ntk mu... 9yrs n counting, nvr ends.. Our friendship are t best!!!!!!

Loves ya!!!!! More thn u do =P

2009-11-08T17:25:00.001+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 112 ~

Midnight 2/11 - tutong
Morning 2/11 - frm tutong transfer to bndr, serious bnr kh?

Check darah 3x n urine twice, bsiruk, xray, cuci parut n paru2, antibiotics, tmbah darah.. Again? Terupong! Again? Lots! Teruk nya! Jarih! Tp itu kmahuan sndri!

Ada wifi = free intrnt! Jimat jua krdt!

Smoga slmt dunia akhirat amin!

p/s - im fyne im cool! =)

2009-11-05T20:31:00.001+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 111~

Firmal Idol – Kehilangan

Ku coba ungkap tabir ini
Kisah antara kau dan aku
Terpisahkan oleh ruang dan waktu
Menyudutkanmu meninggalkanku

Ku merasa tlah kehilangan
Cintamu yang tlah lama hilang
Kau pergi jauh karena salahku
Yang tak pernah menganggap kamu ada

Asmara memisahkan kita
Mengingatkanku pada dirimu
Gelora mengingatkanku
Bahwa cintamu tlah merasuk jantungku

Sejujurnya ku tak bisa
Hidup tanpa ada kamu aku gila
Seandainya kamu bisa
Mengulang kembali lagi cinta kita
Takkan ku sia-siakan kamu lagi

Im just in love w this song! It came straight frm my heart too! Owhh sweet...

I thnk i aint normal!!

Uuuurrghhhh my lyfe w.out u is errrrrrrkkkkkk!!!!

Went to 6 diff shops but nthngs interested me!! None of t foods or drinks evn chocolates!!

I nd beryl's dark chocolate!!! I cnt find it here in tutong or evn at huaho!!! Im craving fr it again... I nd it now!!

Jovan musk~ im just in love w ur smell~ whn i wl hv u in my lyfe~ owhhh jovan musk! U r such wonderful perfume!! I love u!!

In few days, chenta's big day wl come but im still dnt knw wht to buy fr her... Yet, im broke too!! I knw she hint2 fr those 'thngy' at guardian but hey! Baik victoria secret tue or laneige!!! Hehehe chentaaa ku..... May i 'utang' dulu kh? InsyaAllah if i get 1-1 posts, i wl treat u anywhere u wnt! Evn tht 'thng' hehehe

Thanks to evrybody fr their supports! Love u all!!

I feel soooooo empty.... Hmmpphhh...

My dear fren, RF where r u? I hope u r ok back there.. Apa kabarmu? Ku hrp kau baik2 saja...

*31st vibe - baby*

2009-11-04T12:52:00.000+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 110 ~

Kau tahu aku myintai mu.. Kau tahu aku mrindui mu.. Kau tahu aku ninginkn mu.. Kau tahu aku mdambakn mu..

Sejak ku btemu dgn mu, indahnya dunia ku.. Bahagia jiwa ku dgn khadiran mu.. Kau ubati hidupku dgn senyuman mu.. Ingatkh kau ptama kali kita btemu dn bmesra..

Kau mnerangi.. Kaulh pelita..

Imaginasi mliar... Imaginasi memilih ntk bsma mu, hdup bahagia bdua.. Ku tetap memilih ntk mnerima kshsyg mu wlu hnya bayangan.. Kshsyg yg kau prnh curahkn, itulh kbahagian itulh jln k alam dunia tsndri.. Hnya dlm imaginasi dn minda kita tetap bsma bahagia.. Hnya kau btaktha dhati..

Tiada kata yg dpt d ungkapkn tsirat dn tsurat dhati.. Tiada kata yg dpt d ungkapkn perasaan ku pd mu..

Hnya pd Allah ku bserah.. Hnya pd Allah ku mmohon ptunjuk..

Ku myintai mu tp kbahagian kita tak dpt dtemukn slamanya, tpisah antara ruang dn masa..

Jasad dmiliki tp jiwa memiliki..

Tiada seurg pun yg tahu isi hati ini..

Ku mrasa khilangan krna kau pergi dr ku.. Bila kau d depan mata, ku tak mhargai tp bila kau pergi slamanya ku mrindui mu akan tetapi masa takkn kembali smula...

Andai dsni sja jodoh dn ptemuan kita yg trakhir, ingin ku mgatakn aku mhormati mu sluruh jiwa ku.. Maafkn ku jika kata dn pbuatan ku prnh myakiti hati dn mbuat mu dlanda masalah.. Kenangi lh ku dlm sdetik nafas mu.. Doa kn ntk ku agar ku bahagia dn tenang dsampingNya.. Ku takkn kembali lagi, ku takkn mampu mceriakn hari yg dlalui mu lagi, ku takkn ada dsisi mu lagi ntk mngonsikn kshsyg, slamanya..

p/s - Kenanglh aku dlm doa mu slalu...

2009-11-01T12:50:00.000+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 109~

Im feel so hopeless and helpless..

To someone specific, im sory fr being ngusut to u but a big thanks fr still being there fr me.. I do appreciate all ur thoughts and supports...

Im not a winner but yet im not a loser too..

Wht im thnking now? Too much!! I dnt knw wht is true or lies anymore.. I cnt believe i lose to my own thoughts!!

Ohhh dunia ini penuh kepalsuan mungkinkah tiada keikhlasan...

Mental!!

2009-10-31T22:26:00.000+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 108~

My LS - smoga Allah sentiasa mberikn mu ksenangan dn kbahagian ntk cinta kita bdua amin amin amin

RF - smoga Allah sentiasa mberikn mu ktenangan, kceriaan dn kbahagian, amin amin amin

Chenta Munerah - smoga Allah sentiasa mberikn mu klancaran ntk mu mhadapi plajaran dn mudah fhm dn mhafal d dlm plajaran amin amin amin

Myself - smoga Allah sentiasa mberikn ku rahmat, hidayah, ktenangan dn ktabahan dlm mnempuhi hidup ku yg penuh liku amin amin amin

My families - smoga Allah sentiasa mrahmati kalian, smoga dpnjangkn umur dn bdn yg sihat amin amin amin

My RTE - smoga Allah sentiasa mberikn kalian kmudahan dlm mnempuhi sgalanya amin amin amin

My friends - smoga Allah sentiasa mberkati kalian amin amin amin

Salah silap ku mohon kmaafan atas sgalanya...

Love ya all!!!

Regards,
BiBiH @ Hamiezatul Aniezah

p/s - fragile with my feelings n emotions.. It hurts but i hv to face with it again..

RF my fren.. Thnks!! Im hapy i knw u til tday! Thnks fr helping me too =(

2009-10-28T12:21:00.003+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 107 ~

Babyboo..
These tears are not of sadness,
But overwhelming happiness,
They are feelings for you,
My love are so true,
Little pieces of my heart from missing you..
(in memory of 23rd March 2005)

i cnt read longer anymore..

Your words make my heart heavy,
Your words are true,
But i dont have the answers,
I just know i love you too,
How will this end,
Happiness or pain..
(a memory of 30th March 2005)

hmmpphh u knw t answer by now aftr 4yrs..

My answer is both, happiness and pain too...

2009-10-24T23:05:00.002+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 106~

i cnt chat d webcam kfm! Ngapa yz ah? Tlampau canggih kalie?

Tadie went to gdg, guess wht i bought? Hahaha kuchkuch hota hai!!! Bn a while ku mcarie n alhamdulilah aku dpt udh... Kabhi kushi kabhi gham n mohabbatein nti ku mbalie lh... Tunggguuuuuu...

Hahaha my cuz c Ayu mliat aku mnangis dlm keta tadie! Mnangis tp ktawa! Dendam rindu mbara yg tak mampu ku bendung lagie hingga mnitis kn air mata ini.... Im just sorrrryyyyy....

Aku heng dmlm! Bnyk bakat rh tngan ku! Ulah ku dtg smula! I dnt wnt to live nomore.... Aku lemah... Aku hampa..

Aku rasa aku kurang darah =) dmlm buktinya smpai ku ayung paning n mual wlu nda bnyk kuar darah... Errrmmm fr me nda plng bnyk but dnt knw urg lain anggap lh...

Evn now aku trasa paning n mual! Hhmphhhh...

Rindddduuuuuuu... Rinddduuuuu serinnndduuuu rindddduuu nyaaaaaa....

Hate it! Hate it!

2009-10-23T23:51:00.001+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 104~

Hncur hati mgenang dikau jd keping2 mliat kau dn dri nya, apalh dunia ku ini wlu saket mnanggung tpksa mnerima cnta yg tlarang

Aku tpksa hdup dlm realiti dunia ini tnpa insan sperti mu yg ku sanyungi dn sygi...

Kini.. Wlu berat hati ini mlangkah tnpa riang ria tawa mu dsisi lagi ku harus mrelakan mu pergi demi mgotakn jnji bhgia pd insan yg sudi mnemani spanjang hayat mu..

Tpksa mlangkah wlu pun pyh dgn langkah kekosongan.. Apa kn daya dunia bkn milik kita bdua..

Ini salah ku.. Tak ingin ku sesali perit yg mlanda.. Hnya knangan manis bdua mampu mhidupkn khidupan ini..

Ku nyintai mu tp tak swajarnya ku harus memiliki mu spnuh raga.. Restui ku ntk terus myayangi mu.. Satu pmintaan iklas dr insan ini, kekalkn kharmonian kshsyg yg prnh kita selami, jgn lupakn ku slamanya.. Kenangani lh daku dlm doa dn stiap hembusan nafas mu...

Timeless... Dnt let it end, no.. Hold tight baby... Timeless... Dnt let it fade of sight.. Just let t moment sweep us both away lifting us to where we both agree.. Timeless love.. Dnt evr let me go..

Cepat pulang cepat kembali jgn pergi lagi... Firasat ku ingin kau ntk cepat pulang cepat kembali jgn pergi lagi...

Firasat ini ingin bsma mu slagi ku masih btahan d dunia tp firasat ini juga mronta mginginkn dri mu tlepas dr genggaman tngn ku agar kau bisa mrempuhi liku2 khidupan bsma nya bdua bahagia..

Satu kputusan yg amat berat tp tpksa dtempuhi...

Sampai bila ku akan btahan dgn kata yg mracuni jiwa dn minda ku?? Dmasa ini, jiwa ku rapuh dn airmata syahdu ngalir... Kpd siapa ku harus mluahkn? Siapa yg mampu memahami kata hati ini?

Biar pun ngalir airmata drh skalipun tiada ada yg mampu ku lakukan...

Hancur luluh perasaan ini..

Ya Allah.. Berikanlah hamba Mu ini satu kekuatan agar hamba dpt meneruskn pjuangan khidupan yg smkin ganas dn hilang arah... KepadaMu ku bserah...

Riwayat cinta kini berakhir kembali... Bilakh riwayat cinta itu akan kembali smula mnerangi hati yg kelam??

Bilakh smua ini akan berakhir... Bilakh smua ini akan hilang dr khidupan ku slamanya? Aku tak kekal mnerangi dunia ini, satu hari pasti ku kn pergi jua... Buat slamanya... Bilakh smua ini akan lenyap?

Satu ungkapan yg lahir dr benak ini...

Maafkn aku d atas sgalanya... Maafkn aku tak mampu btahan...

Aku bkn sperti yg dulu yg kau kenal.. Kini aku adalh dri ku yg baru..

2009-10-22T21:55:00.002+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 103~

Ku akui ku sangat sangat menginginkan mu
Namun kusadari ku diantara kalian
Aku tak mengerti ini semua harus terjadi
Ku akui ku sangat sangat mengharapkan mu
Tapi kini ku sadar ku tak akan bisa
Aku tak mengerti ini semua harus terjadi
Lupakan aku kembali padanya
Aku bukan siapa siapa untukmu
Ku cintaimu tak berarti bahwa ku harus milikimu slamanya
aaa…aaa…
Ku akui ku sangat menginginkan mu
Tapi kusadari ku diantara kalian
Aku tak mengerti ini semua harus terjadi

i just fell in love w tht song!

Myintai seseurg tak smestinys memiliki!

Meski ragamu tak dapat ku miliki
Jiwaku kan slalu bersamamu
Meski kau tercipta bukan untukku
Tuhan berikan aku cinta satu kali lagi
Hanya untuk barsamanya
Ku mencintainya sungguh mencintainya
Rasa ini sungguh tak wajar
Namun ku ingin tetap bersama dia
Untuk selamanya
Mengapa cinta ini terlarang
Saat ku yakini kaulah milikku
Mengapa cinta kita tak bisa bersatu
Saat ku yakin tak ada cinta selain dirimu
Tuhan berikan aku hidup satu kali lagi
Hanya untuk bersamanya
Ku mencintainya sungguh mencintainya
Rasa ini sungguh tak wajar

p/s im going crazy, uncontrollable and depress!
Namun ku ingin tetap bersama dia
Untuk selamanya

2009-10-17T23:08:00.004+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 102 ~

aku tak sempurna... Aku tak sperti yg kau ingin kn.. Lelah hati ini myakinkn mu.. Cinta ini mbunuhku..

luahan hati ini tak sesiapa yg ngerti mahu pun mgetahui...

Ngapa kau lukai hati ku dgn kata mu itu... Ngapa kau lukai jiwa ini dgn sifat mu itu...

Jika benar kau myayangi atau prnh myayangi dri ini henti kn lh kata2 manis mu yg mbuat hati ini bharap wlu pd zahir nya masa takkan kembali ntk kita bdua...

Kau tau dri ku.. Tiada indah dunia ku tnpa khadiran mu.. Namun kau tetap mnemani ku spanjang jln yg bliku..

Harua kh kh mharapkn mu?

Kita smua manusia masing2 pnya harga dri.. Masing2 pnya perasaan... Apa lagj yg kau inginku korban kn demi kau memahami dri ini...

Tepuk dada tnya selera... Tepuk dada mu tnya siapa yg kau sygi.. Buktikn sgalanya tnpa ragu.. Ku sedia mdngr sgala jwpan yg bakal lahir dr bibir mu sndri wlu hakikat nya akan mlukai hati ku lagi, buat kali kdua dr dri mu...

Dlm dunia mu siapa dri ini? Adakh hnya satu boneka yg wujud ntk dpmainkn.. Adakh bg mu dri ini cermin yg ada bygan hnya jika saat kau memerlu kn nya..

Hncur ati ini... Rapuh hati ini...

Gelak tawa tak mampu mbendungi sedihnya jiwa ini...

Owhh dunia indahnya dgn sinaran matahari dpg hari dn bulan dmlm hari, sinari lh dunia ku ini dgn sinaran suria mu yg terang... Jgn kelami jiwa ini tnpa cahaya mu...

Aku lemah aku akur aku bsedia ntk sgala yg bakal dtempuhi... Berilh aku kekuatan ntk mneruskn...

Mlm ini aku kelam.. Aku benci... Aku sedih.. Aku thina....

p/s siapa dri ku pd mu???

Hati yg tluka tiada ubatnya..

2009-10-16T21:44:00.003+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 101~

aku damam!!! Since dr tasek lama aku damam til now! Hahaha i dnt knw why.. Nya urg lps jogging anie shld b sehat lh tp anie damam! Hehehe ada lagie urg damam slain aku rupanya! Tp kdia damam rindu =P

owh tadie kmi swmng dstadium! Slps dr ripas kna halau hahahahaha well siuk lh psl aku pndai dh branang sdikit! Yeheeee! Staun dh Blalu aku nda jogging ahernya apa yg my LS ajar dulu dpt ku buat! Bangga lh nie hehehe

bb im off now, sanggal ku lps swnng!

2009-10-15T23:26:00.001+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 100~

im missing you!!!!!!
how i wish you knew...

2009-10-13T02:21:00.004+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post # 99~

both of them r in their own world but im still wide awake evntho now is 4 in the morning...

alone and quite myke me thnking but im not vry sure... Means by tht, jiwang ngilu-ish dada n mental strike again!

I shall not discuss tht matter here, someone might be offended... I keep to my self n mind sja lh.. It's ok if my thoughts hurt me so bad i dnt mind..

My lyfe not always on the top.. Most of the tyme im always down..

Sick n sick..

Owh how i wish u were here w me to comfort n pamper me!! who i nd is u but t prob is.. U knw wht..

Im so hopeless!!! Evryday evryday evry second i cnt avoid myself frm this depression!

I cnt gv it a high hope to RF ntk mlayan aku sja, kdia pun mcarie rezeki krg ia sasak mlayan aku sja, ia bh tmpt ku ngusut.. Chenta pun sibuk w her ubd.. LS sibuk w his works... Im alone in ky world... Im always are... Owhhh siapa lh diri anie.... Im no body!!

Owh tyme... Can u gv me an extra crdt to myke u stop n reverse few yrs ago? Im crazy abt u tyme!

To keep me away frm this i shld myke my self busy but how? Going somewhere nd a money to buy car fuel, staying at home w the kids w all their noises n stubborns myke me crazy! How abt works? Myb im not trying hard enough to get one!!

I wnt to run... Run frm this lyfe!!!

LAME!!!!

Hate! Hate! Hate! Hate!

Sory guys! Sory LS! Sory RF! Sory chenta!

shld i stop bothering n ngusut at u? Shld i let u w.out me? U knw my ans= i cnt!

2009-10-12T19:38:00.001+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post #98 ~

im here at jrudong villa w chenta n my cuz Ayu... Three of us so busy w our phone n lappy.. Im w my iphobe applications n songs, Ayu w her new ebuddy and chenta w her fb...

Im purchasing a new game frm itunes store, courtesy frm chenta cashcard! Hhehe

us were frm tasek lama aftr a vry long tyme not going there.. Oh my!!! Im not fit again! Angih2 ku!!!! I nd to worl harder!!!

Owh well... I saw c RF arh roundabt basar qlap lps ia muleh kaja at 5... Hehehe i just knw atu c RF dr jauh!!! A glad feeling whn aku liat kdia aftr a while nda jmp... Miss c RF ku hehehe jgn prasan yee RF =P bh RF bila jmp gie?

Apa lagie ah? Im tired! I feel sick! Owh my! Wht happen to me....

I nd my healer! I nd my sweetness! I nd my u!

2009-10-10T08:38:00.005+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post #97 ~

A vry hectic wk i had! Padi-ing & durian-ing! And my badan so gatal banget! Has a sleepover at padi house last wed n more gatal d bdn!!

Hehehe im waiting fr my perfume jovan! =P one day soon i wl get tht as a present fr my busdeh frm my fren c RF.. No worries RF, i wl wait lh..

To my chenta too, jgn tah gagas mbalie adiah ah =P dnt rush tyke ur tyme.. Nda adiah pun nda jua apa! Save duit kn kn? He he he =P

soon kn order aunty Bunny's kitkat cupcakes as a treat fr me fr my belated busdeh on t 27th Sept.. A prezie fr myself frm myself too ahahaha

dj Ayu, dnt frget my songs!! =P

code red! A fav songs? Unbreak my heart! This is our song! And.. Wonderful tnyte.. Ewaaahhh hehehe gmbr nya teddy bear w love lagie tue hehehehee sweeeettttt!!!!!! I wnt more!

Wht else? Dnt knw! Feel so sleepy! Off to zzzZzz now tho it's morning, owhh just bcoz i woke up at 3.30 in the morning n stay awake!!

Owh yeah.. Tnyte wl b a nyte.. Apa nah? Main bouncer rh my usu Bidin blakang rmh! Yaaaayyyyyy seeerrraaaannnggggggg!! Nd to bring extra baju coz cnfrm basah tue main aing!! Happy birthday 7th Fatin Sri Najibah!!

Uuuurrrghhh *sleepy* nd to go by now

Assalamualaikum, cheers! God bless ya all...

Owhh dunia ini penuh kepalsuaaannnnnn

2009-10-03T09:55:00.003+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post #96 ~

guess wht? A dream come true!!! Thanks to my LS!! At last, i can blog thru my vry own iPhone 3GS!!!! Yeeeheeeeee....

owh well.... It was a gift fr my busdeh!! It's a white 16GB 3GS iPhone =) thanks my love fr t cool prezzie!!

Thanks too to my dear frens in FB and families on msg fr ur greetings!!!

aku tliur kn mkn spicy chicken McDeluxe of McD!!! Nyum2...

This yr puas ku mkn durian esp my fav, durian utak udang = durian yg isinya wrna oren!!! Sbiji ku seurg mkn pun alum ku puas mkn anie bh! Slalunya ku mkn 2-3 biji tp alum jua ouas, thanks to our families dusun fr tht nyummy durian, e ryday mkn durian sja!! Durian puteh n montong nda ku brapa pnda. Mkn wlu ku dbg... Only durian utak udang sja dpt mbangkitkn selera durian ku ewaaahhh hehehe

2 days ago we had a mini BBQ d kg bekiau aka drmh padi my prnts, ada kambing ayam sausages tomyam nasi kabu ikan bakar n ambuyat.. My LS dtg sma my chenta Munerah n sish dtg!! thanks guys!!! Hehehe tht nyte mlaha my new phone w my chenta!

Pics soon to b updated since aku alum krmh chenta pnjam wifi n lappy dsna!!! Pls b bsabar ye...

2009-09-30T10:03:00.002+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post #95 ~

just hate
just hate
just hate

owh i wish it was easy!

im sleepy n tired! but nd to help prnts at padi!

well.. dnt pamper urself! somehow urg yg tahan nyawa bkaja keras wlu tak ckup tdur n rehat dgn urg yg mdulur dri pkra damit pun dri sndri tak buat yg pling bnyk masa brehat, just diam je! apa tau mu? gigit samut pun riuh?

fr past few mnths, with 5people 2 mninggal (Al-Fatihah) arnd me hv cncer/leukumia, whts a sign to me? i better check too!

2009-09-28T11:44:00.001+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post #94 ~

guys! susah sngat ke kn mnepati jnji anie? klu susah ngapa tah dr awal bjnji? ohhh jnji melayu!!

guys! susah sngat ke be on tyme as yg d setujui? klu ada alasan yg dterima akal mgkn dmaafkn tp mun alasan yg cukup2 mkn apa kisahnya? ohh jnji melayu!!

p/s - starting to workout n diet ha ha ha

thanks bodih2 yg bg aku greetings d sms n fb + kfm by dj Ayu, only! =P

slept at 5am n wokeup at 11.45am

NO MOOD!!

nd jovan musk, urgent! rindu bau nya!!

2009-09-27T00:42:00.002+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post #93 ~

aku busdeh! hehe adiah ku so far..

- patung elmo
- krdt easi 20 dr LS
- duit raya yg bnyk dr LS ku
- tp aku mau iPhone puteh! hehehe =P
- dinner d LeStadium
- soon aku kn order cake dr aunty Bunny Pablo
- siapa2 kn bg aku adiah d alu2 kn he he he

awu.. aku k batu satu tadie kalie jovan musk abis udh! sma handbag sma klip.. nti ksna lagie, jovan tue pnting!

2009-09-23T23:39:00.001+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post #92 ~

do u knw i miss u?

do u knw i miss our tyme tgthr?

do u knw i miss ur funny jokes?

do u knw i miss ur sweetness?

do u knw i miss ur romantic-ness?

but most of all..

I MISS..

YOU!!!

i feel dwn again! uncontrollabe feelings, mixed aka rojak feelings!

do u feel t same way too?

but why....

just in love w u again...

dnt wnt to lose u..

dnt wnt u to frget me..

not sure enough..

p/s im sory fr being jiwang-ish n ngilu-ish dada..

2009-09-21T21:18:00.001+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post #91 ~

my raya tday? did a mini open house fr dad fmlies, went to bekiau fr 3houses, my nini sbalah, my tua n c lynah..

tmoro early morning going to bndr- lumapas, bengkurung, telanai n blabla dnt knw where

met baby Thanya again! she's so adorable! loves to smile n laugh! i bet her Tita in Aussy missing her ya?

nudge me on sms! missing yew shayang kuyh =P

too much water! too many foods! i nd to stop eating, no gaining weight again!

RFRFRFRFRFRFRFRF

2009-09-20T00:08:00.003+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post #90 ~

keep me in ur heart.. keep me in ur lyfe.. im always here fr u.. tyme heals but not memories.. im here w u..

feel so jiwang tnyte, missing a man..

tmoro raya, monday!

SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN..

NOT looking frwd this yr raya, tiada kriangan dhati, hari kmenangan telah blalu, jika umur pnjang taun dpn bsma kembali..

decided this raya trying to puasa too.. and aftr raya do my fitness zone again!

baby always missing u..

2009-09-17T00:04:00.001+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post #89 ~

2 days in row a blast in my lyfe! yrstday LS treats my prnts niece n me to Shereton hotel and tday dj Ayu treats me to OGH wlu halnya aku tak puasa hehe..

well thanks both of u! my best birthday gifts!

owh yahh.. RF, thanks fr evrythngs fren! mana kn dpt kwn mcm kau? huhu kambang cha, mlatop2!

soon i blog fr more + pictures, just to update tht im alive =)

SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN...

dmana mcari ganti kaca yg pecah btaburan..

2009-09-10T20:29:00.001+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post #88 ~
mum asked- mana cAsni?kraja bshift ia lakat kh? i replied- ahh awuu kalie ia kraja sja.. she asked again- ada kupon? me-nda ada..

im on marathon now, a marathon of cleaning the house in and out!

well, NOT looking frwd this raya!

RF- u just put a smile on my lips! hehe

tmoro going to airport to send my cuz to Jordan thn off to shopping! planning to buy a new microwave since we dnt hv one

btw im kapih-un, sejak bila jua nda? hahaha

2009-09-09T12:00:00.000+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post #87 ~
my birthday wishes this yr on 27th...

an internal HD of 80GB of SATA

DST broadband

a new Nokia mobile phones of 3G, touchscreen, WiFi or iPhone 3GS

a new gold nissan latio hatchback

aunty Bunny creations! esp kitkat cupcakes!

im staying at chenta Munerah now.... im hving a stomach-ache~ during sungkai we only ate a burger n i drank 5-6glasses of bandung....

heheheheheeeeee

a part of me missing you =))

2009-09-06T02:25:00.001+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post #86 ~
especially fr someone... u knw who u r =))

*1R*

This is for a person
The sound of the song replaces words
Deep love increases and not decrease
The moment that I kiss his face

The ground spins and the sky whirls
The feeling of love
Is even sweeter than cherries
Our eyes send out lightning

With the ability to exceed the limit
Allowing people to forget the seasons
Love has become a classic
For her to give up all the love blame

I want you to be my love forever
I love you
Everyday....

*2E*

Ku mencintai mu, lebih dari apapun
Meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu
Ku mencintai mu, sedalam-dalam hati ku
Meskipun engkau hanya

Yakinlah bahwa engkau adalah cinta ku
yang ku cari s’lama ini, dalam hidup ku
Dan hanya pada mu ku berikan sisa cinta ku
yang panjang dalam hidup ku

*3E*

kau hancurkan aku dengan sikapmu
tak sadarkah kau telah menyakitiku
lelah hati ini meyakinkanmu
cinta ini membunuhku

*4N*

Aku bertahan karna ku yakin cintaku kepadamu..
sesering kau coba tuk mematikan hatiku..
takkan terjadi karna ku tahu kau hanya untukku..

aku bertahan ku akan tetap pada pendirianku
sekeras kau coba tuk membunuh cintaku..
dan aku tahu kau hanya untukku…

Tatap mataku dan kau akan tahu…
Semuanya yang kurasakan….

cheers........ im always and always be there for u... tho endlessly i try but in t end i die, im a loser... Assalamualaikum...

2009-09-02T22:22:00.002+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post #85 ~
now im blogging via chenta Munerah intrnt connection! at last bru tah ku mrasa intrnt nya ahhh hehehehehe frst tyme yooooo stelah 2wks ia ada intrnt udh?? =PP

so, yg ku perlu buat -

check hotmail

check facebook, yg ada tag

blogging

liat SPA

do i hv another lyfe to live? NOT!!!!!

to my fren c Jovan or RedFerrari, where r u? ngapa sepi tnpa berita? im missing you too!!! u knw i nd u daym much~ heheheheeee

i dnt hv a better lyfe now... all thngs scuk! i hate its!!!

why why why???

aku masa anie slalu mental! mental banget! well, im under medication of stress... paksa jua... mun nda... mmng dh mhilang aku nie~

well, my weight turun 51.7 frm 53kg in just 2wks! im hapy fr it and looking frwrd to achieve a dream of 45kg!!

aku batah dh tak jogging + k tasek, abt a mnth i thnk since jerebu days and now puasa-ing!

busdeh ku na gie lama...

dear Jovan and RedFerrari... u ada lagu Maria - bisik hati or angan? those songs dedicate fr u, frm bottom of my heart.... well, cnt wait to see u again! it's bn a while too...

im missing my dearly cuz Shasha in Aussy....hvnt had a chance to meet her whn she was in brunei... again, this yr raya im not w her again! *sob* my 2nd raya or it's 3rd?

i thnk i wl less updating my blog... im being so mental!

2009-08-20T22:16:00.001+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post #84 ~
on wednesday went to RIPASH ntk derma my darah.. then went to LeApple fr tapau-ing LS's chocolate cakes..

btw, aku mau perfume jovan musk fr men!bkn apa... fr men nyaman bau nya n lasting... jovan musk ku drmh tnggal sdikit udh, fr many yrs udh ku pkai, syg ku hehehehe.... mun spray rh my bantal busuk mmng ku lena d ulit mimpi sharian tak bgn! so any sponser fr my jovan musk?? heheheheheheee

2009-08-19T14:44:00.000+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post #83 ~
Regine Velasquez - I Will Always Love You

Just a gentle whisper
Tell me that you called
Even only in memories
Where did we go wrong
Couldn’t find the words then
So, let me say it now
I’m still in love with you

Tell me that you love me
Tell me that you care
Tell me that you need me
And I’ll be there
I’ll be there waiting

I will always love you
I will always stay true
There’s no one who loves you like I do
Come to me now
I will never leave you
I will stay here with you
Through the good and bad
I will stand true
I’m in love with you

Now were here together
Yesterday has past
Life is just beginning
Close to you at last
And I promise to you
I would always be there
I give my all to you

Living life without you
Is more than I can bear
Hold me close forever
(I’ll be there)
I’ll be there for you

I will always love you
I will always stay true
There’s no one who loves you like I do
This I promise
I will never leave you
I will stay here with you
Through the good and bad
I will stand true
Hold me closer

Our love is forever
Holding us together
Nothing in this world can stop us now
Love has found
Love has found, our way
I’m in love (I’m so in love)
I’m in love (yes, I’m in love)
I’m so in love
With you…

nahhh Jovan, this song dedicated fr u! ehehehehehheheeee =PP

2009-08-18T14:22:00.003+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post #82 ~
here pictures on the 8/8/09... happy anniversary love! more pictures at my FB =)) thanks to all who congrajuate(sp!) me esp on my FB and here =)

HAPPY RAMDHAN TO YOU ALL....!!

p/s : sory fr lack of updates, again no intrnt connection at home, frevr! im waiting fr a new iMac & a broadband (bie saayaaaangggg) hehheheee

owh yeah... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DJ AYU THIS COMING THURSDAY, 20th AUGUST!!! stayyyyyy MLATINGGGGSSS!!!!

owh yeah, im in LOVE with chocolate cakes frm Le'Apple! my frst tyme going there 2days ago and it was fabolous! last nyte also went there w my LS, he treated a slice of cake there too! hehehehee

lunch tyme, ate 2 of apple pies of McD + a vry spicy 50cen nasi katok sbungkus

2009-08-14T14:37:00.002+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post #81 ~
how i wish i nvr get bored evryday n how i evr wish all wht im thnking or dreaming abt are true, how i wish evry words in my mind can exixts in matter of tyme, im suffering frm dilusion, dilema, misery n paranoia, depression is my bestfriend nowadays! she still a little gurl who still dnt knw arnd her n who nvr stand herself alone, she does knw how to bdikari but whn it comes to myke her sad, she cnt bear w it n she always go crazy! my mind rojak-ing ryte now,i dnt knw wht is reality or only on my mind, i txting w a fren on thursday nyte, this fren is also bestfren of mine n im not sure wht i told c Jovan but fr sure i still cnt lose or not in contact, chenta Munerah is my besy buddy! my sis in this world! i knw she always there fr me up n down n i hope it going frevr n nvr ends, dnt knw why im talking crabs here, now tht's wht i feel n on my mind.. am i ready fr evrythngs? am i ready fr smthngs new? am i ready to sacrifice? am i ready to myke another step of lyfe i knw i cnt hope fr wht u evr dream, only in my imagination in hapy w him

2009-08-13T17:34:00.000+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post #80 ~
depression strikes me again!
my world seems t same as bfr!
im missing my dearly frens Jovan n RF! i just nd them both!
i hate to b in this world n myke my lyfe misrable!
i hate whn someone myke me lyke this, lyke im dead! or not exixts in t world!

2009-08-10T23:06:00.000+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post #79 ~
thanks to all fr t greetings! pics soon to be update, waiting fr chenta Munerah's espeed dulu..
im totally broke!! anyone wnt to sponser me, pls?
p/s - love u! mish u! XoXoXoXoXo

2009-08-05T18:47:00.002+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post #78 ~

Assalamualaikum.. im blogging thru my sweet sis-in-law iMac~ aseeeeehhh sweet kn??? sweet lagie aku!!

this friday i hv a return test fr a post frm SPA which i cnt rmbr wht at 10am, i wl b going w my seet sis-in-law (again!) since she has her test too at 8.30....

owh yeah... my LS's prnts and sis already back frm UK since 31st July....

HAPPY 1st ANNIVERSARY (8TH AUGUST) TO U MY LOVELY SOMEONE, THAT DAY IS THE DAY IM WAITING FOR.. NOW, OUR TARGET IS OUR NEXT BIG DAY!

i cnt wait fr this coming saturday! yaaaaaaayyyyyyy

sory it's bn a while i hvnt blog, u knw ryte at home no internet connection...

*hint2* aku mau chocolate kitkat cupcakes frm aunty BunnyPablo

hazy days~ i cnt do my activities esp going to tasek or jogging near our home beach~

tagged -

sweet sis-in-law : thanks fr borrowing ur computer~
chenta Munerah : see u on saturday!
RedFerrari ; hai there dear fren! how r u?? it's bn a while too i hvnt heard any news frm u...
Jovan : whn wl b our nxt meeting??
dj Ayu : mlatingggggggg!! bila lagie bjaur??
RTE14 - sory guys not memanggil this saturday..

wl post pictures abt my saturday nyte to come!

2009-08-04T09:15:00.000+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post #77 ~
urrggghh.. wht a hazy day!

2009-07-23T19:48:00.001+08:00

[EverLastingLoveAlways, Hamiezatul Aniezah]
~ post #76 ~
Im blogging thru chenta Munerah hp, currently im at jrudong villa since yrstday..
Im feel so tired tday, at 6am ku bgn n last nyte nya tdur at 2.30am, tlabih jabir kmi atu bceta sedangkn almost evry wk kmi bjmp bceta2..
Aku kn pegi tasek gie! Coz, i lost 3kgs already hehe a gd news!
Other gd news, ayah already talked w my babah tadie abt this 8th.. Im hapy and nervous..
Last nyte we went sushi-ing w chenta, LS and his siblings d misato qlap, at last smpai liur ku dh kn mkn sushi atu..
Lagie, aku kn resign ujung bln anie since aku kna transfer k airport, ntah ah naleh ku kaja sna udh.. Stress ku dgn some of t staffs here there and blablabla.. Hope this end of this mnth kuar gaji ku fr last mnth n this mnth too...
JOVAN! Bila gie jmp? Rindu lh kn bceta w u..
P/s- im out, cheers!